Far as I can tell I don’t live in the real world, I have these ideas of what that world is like but I have become so use to the world I live in, I don’t know if I would like being in that world with that, calm day to day life most everyone leads. Although after living a dream with a beyond wonderful lover for so long I became detached from my own reality and lost myself. I became wild, unpredictable, and dangerous. I couldn’t trust myself any more and with that I hurt everyone, then I turned in on myself and began to kill whom I once was.
While this internal battle waged, my dream life was becoming a nightmare. I didn’t see what I was losing or what was coming, something had to give.

*SNAP*

Everything was lost… even my life.

Now that I’m in hell I have learned what I needed to know. Damned, I have become a monster, but knowing that I have gained some control and perhaps a fighting chance to become happy again, maybe even wake up from this nightmare.