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Sexual Libido NC17 WARNING
15 years ago
So,... I was reading a story by 
hawkwolf and well he was able to put in words something I was not. I have been trying to explain how high my sexual libido is. I hate it, i truly do I really wish I would hurry up and grow out of this part of my younger 20's. Its so annoying to have "sex" going through your head every minute of everyday. Finally H.A. Kirsch wrote:
"I am not satisfied yet. I doubt I will be. I never feel satisfied. It's a constant roar of sexual need in my ears. If I manage to quiet it down, then all I want to do is sleep from the sheer exhaustion of ejaculating fifteen, sixteen times in one day." -Harley
"that always-there buzz of sexual need."
So, that is how I feel every day and no one seems to understand that it ISNT fun pawing so much everyday or always being primed for sex. I don't know why people think it's so much fun but it's not fun and not cool. It's near a curse. I cherish the times that I have actually been like what was said.... when it is managed to be quieted down. But he's right, once its finally quiet you're exhausted and just want to sleep you can't get up and do anything and enjoy the silence.
Sabian IV
hawkwolf and well he was able to put in words something I was not. I have been trying to explain how high my sexual libido is. I hate it, i truly do I really wish I would hurry up and grow out of this part of my younger 20's. Its so annoying to have "sex" going through your head every minute of everyday. Finally H.A. Kirsch wrote:"I am not satisfied yet. I doubt I will be. I never feel satisfied. It's a constant roar of sexual need in my ears. If I manage to quiet it down, then all I want to do is sleep from the sheer exhaustion of ejaculating fifteen, sixteen times in one day." -Harley
"that always-there buzz of sexual need."
So, that is how I feel every day and no one seems to understand that it ISNT fun pawing so much everyday or always being primed for sex. I don't know why people think it's so much fun but it's not fun and not cool. It's near a curse. I cherish the times that I have actually been like what was said.... when it is managed to be quieted down. But he's right, once its finally quiet you're exhausted and just want to sleep you can't get up and do anything and enjoy the silence.
Sabian IV
:)
However I'm fucked.. my sexual libido is relatively high and it will only grow into my 40's and 50's ;_;
But, yes, I know exactly what you mean. Not entirely sure if i'd want to tone mine down though. I kind of like it. I just need my significant other to be someone who can match my libido though, otherwise it wouldn't work out at all.
Then, the year I turned 18 I had my first experience sexually, as amazing as it was it didn't calm me down at all as far as a libido goes. I wanted more and more! To the point that I started to scare myself, wondering if I really loved my girl or I was just using her to feed my sexual needs... Of course I had to break it off with her because of the uncertainty, it was too much to bare along with the thoughts of my future once we graduate High School, she understood wholeheartedly and we've been friends ever since.
The reason I'm telling my story is to inform of my actions to clear my head and reclaim my "sanity". I cut back on the porn (furry and otherwise!) some days I wouldn't even touch my computer, nor my television, I decided to devote my free time to other things. I'm not saying that my methods will get rid of the urge 100%. We humans are sexual beings, its in our genes (in more ways than one. HA! Pants joke!) But porn played a big role in my growing process, both in good and bad.
Bad yes because it clouded my mind, but also good so now when I find love I can look back and say "Remember when you said and/or did that? We don't do that!"