State Of Confusion


I open my eyes to the morning light
As I wake from my sleep
Feeling more awake than before
As my mind starts to stir
Even tho things are still a blur
As I jump out of bed I feel the weight set in
Like a force of nature that I will always keep
Bering down on me pushing me down
As I try to keep my head above the ground

I see the room that surrounds me like a prison of my own self
As my vision returns to me
And even though I am awake things are still not clear
But I still push on holding on to my head
Trying to think about the memories that have been un-done
Thinking back to the past time when all was clear
As each time passes by my memory comes near
But like each time before the last
The confusion comes to pass

Like each breath of air filling my lungs
Just like the memory un-done
Just like the new ideas that fill my head
As each time I go to bed
But with each new day that passes
There is a chance that I shall learn something new
As I put forth all my energy trying to understand
That which I think about every day
As new ideas pass my way
Confusing me all the more in this world of ideas
I shall always feel closer to my self
As I think and solve each memory un-done

When the confusion is finally over
And all the memory’s that where un-done are solved
I will have completed that which man could never reach
Perfection in my self and others
In this lifetime I may never reach
But even if I don’t reach that state of mind
Would it really be better if all was known?
And there was no memory un-done
Would life really be better than what it is?
Because in life we always learn and improve
But if the real meaning of life is to better ourselves
Then perfection is not made for man
Because from confusion we learn and improve
We help those we love and those that need it
And only in my life that I see
Shall I fully understand life as seen threw my eyes?
And for each time I am confused
I shall learn a new meaning
To that which puts me in a state of confusion?
And each time I figure out these things brings me closer to understanding
That all that we do in this life is to improve and to help others from that
Because life is to short to waist it on little things
But when we steep back and look at the whole picture
We can see that which we work hard for
To live for To love for

So for every person out there that has ever confused me
I say thank you to you all
Because from all that u have teacher me I have learned
And I have improved to become a better person
And in this life I hope one thing stays
And that is confusion for the rest of my days