I always get it when i have nothing going on. Unfortunately it also gives me time to think.

And I'm thinking that I'm not good enough for anything nowadays.

What few friends I do have I'm starting to become distant from. Mainly cause one is a bit of an ass and the other is a womanizer. I'm not only much anymore. I haven't loaded a MUCk client to my new laptop and I'm debating if I really want to anymore. I don't play as myself and Ivana's gotten a little stale with the clicke nature that Taps tends to garner.

I don't know. Maybe its just that I'm paranoid or something. Insomnia tends to make me have these feelings the most. But I can't really get any sleep nowadays. I'm working an almost guaranteed 40 hrs/week at my job. I got sent home early two days in a row and still clocked overtime, that's how ridiculous my hours situation is.

And I can't simply get a day to myself anymore. I either spend it doing chores or being belittled by my mother to do this or that. Or why I'm not working on getting out of the house or something along those lines.

Maybe i should clean my room. Being able to see my floor, sleeping on clean sheets and getting the rust stains out my shower may help my self esteem. Or something like that,

- C. R. Ingtail