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15 years ago
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This is . . Partly an update, partly random angst (beware!), and overall just me getting thoughts into text format so I can sort through them as I go. Eh, it helps me to do that, and if I can get some feedback that'd be great. Anyways . . .
Oh, yeah, warning, this is about RL stuff sooo . . run and hide if you don't want to know that much about me! Oh, and no, people, I am not doing this to form a hug box. Actually do want some input, even if I get bashed - to some extent, though, just don't be a dick.
First, off, let me state who I am. I am an 18 year old living in Burbank, California, with my mother and step-dad in a fairly cheap yet stable apartment complex. We're living off of welfare, which may end this November. Mom's pretty much crippled for a list of reasons (post traumatic stress disorder, authritous(sp?) in her wrists, concussion, and others). My step-dad works his ass off at UPS and between the welfare and his wages we're barely making it. I don't have a job. I, currently, am a high school dropout due to both my own stupidity and budget cuts that sealed my fate in the program I was in.
Right now I'm pretty much wasting away in my room, and leaching off of my parents. I also have a nasty overbite and lack of social skills other then running D&D games. Yeah, I know, I am a total loser. Trying to fix that, really I am! (Though I should have started trying months ago . . stupid me.)
I am looking into grants and student loans with an emphasis towards housing. I want, really, really want (boarderline need, though it's not quite a necessity yet) to get out of here. I hate living in this place with my parents. Yeah, life's better for them now, but it's suffocating. However, I'll happily settle for using said loans and such to help pay my way here. Again, November is crunch time. Though, I've got like, no experience looking for this particular subject. Any help, advise, and so on would be fricken awesome, people.
Not fat yet, though I'm starting to gain some weight. Last I checked I was 181. Think I may be closer to 200 then I want to be. Love swimming, fucking love swimming, but there's no public pools around here - well, there is one, but A) People I know and don't get along with (to put it nicely) go there and B) It costs a dollar each time I want to get in (doesn't sound like much, but right now that is a lot of cash). So, looking into alternates. I'm not much for running or jogging, though I do walk around the nearby large park. Pushups and situps aren't my thing. I've gotten into weight lifting and have already started seeing some improvement on that end, but . . . I'm weird. I mean, you can see my ribs but I've got what I can't help but describe as a beer belly.
I've got one roleplay that's been going on for quite a while (the one with Drenon), a roleplay that just started yesterday and is looking promising (FuzzyTuff), and another that is ready to start as soon as I make my entry post. Dragon-Shark has been going crazy for the last few months now trying to get me to roleplay with him, and I've been a bit of a prick due to how annoying he's gotten lately (sorry, dude, but you do get really bothersome!) so I'm going to try and see if we can make something catch our eye. He's gotten a few ideas but they didn't sink in with me so I shot 'em down. Odd, 'cause the above mentioned were pretty much spur of the moment things.
Mugen. That is a labor of love. 400 more characters to go through. Looking for charsel errors, zomg cheating ones, stupid characters, or overpowered (as in, one attack does holy shit damage). Anybody got a good copy of Venom, from Guilty Gear, that isn't the type of AI that will totally rape me on easy? I've been playing on Hard 6 to get the swing of fighting games again, as when I've been playing Dissidia, FFVI, and Timesplitters I get rusty on those.
Drenon and I have an awesome thing going with our website, but, we've hit a wall. Freewebs has a 20 page limit, which we've met. He found another place but so far details there are sketchy. I personally am still looking for another hosting spot that's easier for both of us to act simultaneously. Goddamit, I actually liked freewebs.
Story is still on hold. Fucking physical descriptions >_>
I got a new computer! My IRL friend was about to toss it out as he got a new one. I should have known right from when I opened it and saw the most dust in once place that I've seen in my -life- that it'd be hell. Long story short, now it doesn't work too well, though I've got a few things I want to try. His hard drive was so virus laden it won't even boot properly even after I formatted it. It . . sorta worked with the hard drive I'm using now. More to come on that. I'm going to see if I can totally take it apart and rework it. Bleh, HP computers.
D&D game this Sunday. Gotta write for that. No motivation or ideas though. Pfeh.
Think that's about it for now. Hope to hear feedback, both good and bad. Again, no trolls or -senseless- flame please. No, not trying to sound emo, though I know that's probably how I sound right now. No, not looking for a hug box.
This is . . Partly an update, partly random angst (beware!), and overall just me getting thoughts into text format so I can sort through them as I go. Eh, it helps me to do that, and if I can get some feedback that'd be great. Anyways . . .
Oh, yeah, warning, this is about RL stuff sooo . . run and hide if you don't want to know that much about me! Oh, and no, people, I am not doing this to form a hug box. Actually do want some input, even if I get bashed - to some extent, though, just don't be a dick.
First, off, let me state who I am. I am an 18 year old living in Burbank, California, with my mother and step-dad in a fairly cheap yet stable apartment complex. We're living off of welfare, which may end this November. Mom's pretty much crippled for a list of reasons (post traumatic stress disorder, authritous(sp?) in her wrists, concussion, and others). My step-dad works his ass off at UPS and between the welfare and his wages we're barely making it. I don't have a job. I, currently, am a high school dropout due to both my own stupidity and budget cuts that sealed my fate in the program I was in.
Right now I'm pretty much wasting away in my room, and leaching off of my parents. I also have a nasty overbite and lack of social skills other then running D&D games. Yeah, I know, I am a total loser. Trying to fix that, really I am! (Though I should have started trying months ago . . stupid me.)
I am looking into grants and student loans with an emphasis towards housing. I want, really, really want (boarderline need, though it's not quite a necessity yet) to get out of here. I hate living in this place with my parents. Yeah, life's better for them now, but it's suffocating. However, I'll happily settle for using said loans and such to help pay my way here. Again, November is crunch time. Though, I've got like, no experience looking for this particular subject. Any help, advise, and so on would be fricken awesome, people.
Not fat yet, though I'm starting to gain some weight. Last I checked I was 181. Think I may be closer to 200 then I want to be. Love swimming, fucking love swimming, but there's no public pools around here - well, there is one, but A) People I know and don't get along with (to put it nicely) go there and B) It costs a dollar each time I want to get in (doesn't sound like much, but right now that is a lot of cash). So, looking into alternates. I'm not much for running or jogging, though I do walk around the nearby large park. Pushups and situps aren't my thing. I've gotten into weight lifting and have already started seeing some improvement on that end, but . . . I'm weird. I mean, you can see my ribs but I've got what I can't help but describe as a beer belly.
I've got one roleplay that's been going on for quite a while (the one with Drenon), a roleplay that just started yesterday and is looking promising (FuzzyTuff), and another that is ready to start as soon as I make my entry post. Dragon-Shark has been going crazy for the last few months now trying to get me to roleplay with him, and I've been a bit of a prick due to how annoying he's gotten lately (sorry, dude, but you do get really bothersome!) so I'm going to try and see if we can make something catch our eye. He's gotten a few ideas but they didn't sink in with me so I shot 'em down. Odd, 'cause the above mentioned were pretty much spur of the moment things.
Mugen. That is a labor of love. 400 more characters to go through. Looking for charsel errors, zomg cheating ones, stupid characters, or overpowered (as in, one attack does holy shit damage). Anybody got a good copy of Venom, from Guilty Gear, that isn't the type of AI that will totally rape me on easy? I've been playing on Hard 6 to get the swing of fighting games again, as when I've been playing Dissidia, FFVI, and Timesplitters I get rusty on those.
Drenon and I have an awesome thing going with our website, but, we've hit a wall. Freewebs has a 20 page limit, which we've met. He found another place but so far details there are sketchy. I personally am still looking for another hosting spot that's easier for both of us to act simultaneously. Goddamit, I actually liked freewebs.
Story is still on hold. Fucking physical descriptions >_>
I got a new computer! My IRL friend was about to toss it out as he got a new one. I should have known right from when I opened it and saw the most dust in once place that I've seen in my -life- that it'd be hell. Long story short, now it doesn't work too well, though I've got a few things I want to try. His hard drive was so virus laden it won't even boot properly even after I formatted it. It . . sorta worked with the hard drive I'm using now. More to come on that. I'm going to see if I can totally take it apart and rework it. Bleh, HP computers.
D&D game this Sunday. Gotta write for that. No motivation or ideas though. Pfeh.
Think that's about it for now. Hope to hear feedback, both good and bad. Again, no trolls or -senseless- flame please. No, not trying to sound emo, though I know that's probably how I sound right now. No, not looking for a hug box.
Twilus Santari
~oversal
I couldn't bear to lambaste anyone for the fun of it. Some people just have to vent and know that others understand what causes that stress. I'm also living with my parents right now, trying to find something that pays the bills, even though jobs are very, very, very, slim pickings now, so I'm thinking of find more unusual gigs. I really don't know where to begin on feedback, there's so much.
DraconicArchmage
~draconicarchmage
OP
I try to keep it in, but sometimes my thoughts just need to be written down somewhere. I figured 'hey, might as well try this, and see what happens'. I gotta ask, though - what do you mean by unusual gigs? Right now I can't even get a job at the Ralphs across the street, haha.
Twilus Santari
~oversal
Something that needs creativity, jobs that are most traditionally thought of as "unreliable and unsteady." I wish I even knew how to get a lead on one.
