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so ronery
15 years ago
Yeah, I say it in a half-joking manner and this kind of shit rarely gets to me but lately it has.
I don't know what the deal is. It just seems like I KNOW that someone is out there for me but I can't find her.
I say 'her' because yeah, I am bisexual but for some reason or another I've not yet been able to see myself in a serious relationship with a guy. I don't know whether this is just because I really don't see myself EVER in a relationship with a guy or if I just haven't found that guy yet.
Anyway, yeah. Lately this kind of thing has been hitting me a lot harder than it usually does and I just don't know how to fix it. Its not for lack of trying, either!
Pretty much all of my attempts at getting something going have failed for the following reasons:
A) The other person isn't interested.
B) The other person is taken.
C) The other person doesn't like me like that.
The vast majority have been reason C.
I think the reason for this is that my ideal mate is someone I can be calm and comfortable around. Somebody who is up for just chilling and hanging out as well as being romantic and lovey-dovey at times. And up for sex. But that one was kind of obvious, right? Simplified, my ideal mate would be more like best-friends-with-benefits, except said benefits are not just sex but also a serious relationship underlying the whole best-friends part.
I don't know, its fucking complicated.
I'm kinda split 60/40 between holding out for that perfect relationship (60%), or becoming one of the douchebags I hate so much and whoring it up and seeing if anything sticks when the dust settles (40%).
For now and the foreseeable future I'm holding out, but this shit is starting to get really, really old.
TL;DR bitching about being alone
I don't know what the deal is. It just seems like I KNOW that someone is out there for me but I can't find her.
I say 'her' because yeah, I am bisexual but for some reason or another I've not yet been able to see myself in a serious relationship with a guy. I don't know whether this is just because I really don't see myself EVER in a relationship with a guy or if I just haven't found that guy yet.
Anyway, yeah. Lately this kind of thing has been hitting me a lot harder than it usually does and I just don't know how to fix it. Its not for lack of trying, either!
Pretty much all of my attempts at getting something going have failed for the following reasons:
A) The other person isn't interested.
B) The other person is taken.
C) The other person doesn't like me like that.
The vast majority have been reason C.
I think the reason for this is that my ideal mate is someone I can be calm and comfortable around. Somebody who is up for just chilling and hanging out as well as being romantic and lovey-dovey at times. And up for sex. But that one was kind of obvious, right? Simplified, my ideal mate would be more like best-friends-with-benefits, except said benefits are not just sex but also a serious relationship underlying the whole best-friends part.
I don't know, its fucking complicated.
I'm kinda split 60/40 between holding out for that perfect relationship (60%), or becoming one of the douchebags I hate so much and whoring it up and seeing if anything sticks when the dust settles (40%).
For now and the foreseeable future I'm holding out, but this shit is starting to get really, really old.
TL;DR bitching about being alone
Now I've got Ee. Patience pays off!