Ok my birthday is coming up, Mum has a huge party planned for "me" though she's invited like a shit load of her friends, her friend the town mayor, a radio station who she is also friends with, more of her friends, some dumass kids that her friends have spawned, none of my friends (because I didn't ask them) and yeah some monks from a buddhist temple. Because she's a buddhist herself, she thought that she would "get their blessings" for me and not get me any "material" presents or cash.

Now with all due respect, I appreciate her belief that they will help me and the people who are coming. But I am unemployed, I have finished college and the most money I get at any time is from xmas and birthdays.

Dad sent me £330 early, I spent that on a few things I needed.

Related to why I am also pissed, I've had toothache so bad that yes, I have come close to overdosing on Paracetemol and then Ibuprofen. The pain was literally so intense I had a few moments in the day where I actually couldn't even remember what I was doing or why I was walking around.

I went and found a dentist in the end, who gave me a filling that cost £38 which didn't solve the problem. The pain was just as bad after the medicine wore off. So I phoned again saying that I couldn't wait another day I needed this tooth fixed. He did some work on it, doesn't hurt as bad and Im on anti-biotics, but he didn't end it there, I have to come back for another treatment that will clean up the roots of the tooth and kill of any infections.

Dad sent me £330 for my birthday, this tooth surgery is gonna cost me almost £400. I'm not asking for a handout, I'm just gonna make Mum fork out for some it. I did kind of say, save the money Mum, I don't like parties. But god damn I swear I could just beat the crap out of somebody right now. Ironic, I probably couldn't afford the baseball bat to do it with.

I'm probably going to go look for an NHS dentist and wait in a 5 week line to get urgent treatment.