so yeah i haven't told anyone about these things before and they are completely unrelated i just thought i would share...


so when i was younger about 7 or so, this was years before i had my appendix removed, i would have a recurring dreams about this girl she was clearly older and dead, but not not visibly dead but just this over whelming feeling of her being dead and the setting was a cemetery so that was one thing about it, it was always by a tomb or crypt. these dreams feels so real and it was like i knew the girl forever like she was a big part of a past life, and there would always be a distinct smell to accompany the dreams and to this day if i smell that smell i get a strange feeling. and years later after the dreams stopped i found a news paper article with her picture in it, i never read the article is was a long look at the picture and i had to leave it there and go


ok so for about a year now i have been having suicidal thought, but its nothing significant (but i shouldn't think of it as insignificant) but its out of my mind as fast as it got in there i dont like it. it comes in when im happy sad or depressed, its there. its a what if i just, or maybe its easy... to let you all know i would never do that tho these thoughts come and go i would never fold to one, this is just to inform people, nothing more