*sighs* its 6:14 in the morning and I'm still up... why didn't i save that energy drink for tomorrow? this goes on the orca's list of "things not to do". So until i fall asleep, I'm watching bleach YAY!!!! gotta love Bleach. if you don't... i will find you lol. no I'm just kidding! But what i need to do is start cleaning my contact list up. i have ppl on my list that i haven't spoken to in months, almost like years. i also need to find a job, which i am going to force myself to do in a couple of hours. hopefully i wont fall asleep in front of someone ^ ^ lets see what else is going on... OH!! I am alive!!! I never understood that, when ppl post that they are still alive. Can post if your dead right... O_O right??? a zombie fur posting journals. *shivers* scary thought (for me that is. not trying to bash anybody or start drama. if zombie furs float your boat kudos to you, i just dont rock that way)
i really should start posting more journals. i just need a push *shrugs* who knows i just might push myself ^ ^ OH!! and im STILL looking for an orca plushie. WHY ARE WE SO HARD TO FIND IN PLUSH!!!! maybe im just not looking hard enough... *thinks* hmmm.... have you ever looked for something, but then found what you were looking for, but it was the thing that you gave up looking for days ago? i do that all the time. but what really bugs me is when i'm about to say something the i forget what i was saying. BIG frustration to me. I also should start drawing again. I dont know why i stopped, well i know why i stopped ( drama and lost my sensei T^T) but i should start up again. i just need to find some type of inspiration, if you can think of anything let me know PLEASE!!!! what else what else to rant about. OH yea... my boyfriend... let me tell you about him... he's freaking awesome that what he is ^ ^ totally lost with out that dragon. he's helped me through alot, and honestly( i know he's gonna read this and give me the eye) i dont think i would be here right now if it was for him, and two other wonderful fur friends(one i know, and one im getting to know. damn kitty gotta be so tall. DAMN YOU TALL PPL!!!!)
No but in all honesty, i don't think i would be here right now typing this rant. I usually dont tell people my busness but no one really reads my journals (unlike the truely famous people on this site, when there journals go up its like BAM!!! everyone has read it ^ ^ LOVE YOU FAMOUS FURS!!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!) but to save you the drama I'm going to make a long story short. I came out to my parents, who i love dearly with all my heart. Now i've been locked up in the closet from when ever i can remember. My folks are old school, and when i say old school, I mean it. So I came clean with them (didnt tell them i was a fur because who knows what woulda happened then) and my dad gave me this firm yet gentle look, and said, " If your going to live that lifestyle, you have to get out of my house" At first i thought it was a big bluff, my folks would do that to get me to do what ever they wanted. But as the days went on,i noticed that they were for real, which scared the shit out of me. long story short, i was put out and was an emotional reck. Now, im the type of person that doesnt freely share my feelings. Its like pulling teeth, teeth that have been weilded INTO the center of the earth and your trying to pull it out with a pair of chopsticks. there is only one person who i truely trust with my emotions and he knows who he is. im just thankful that i have many friends that helped me though this. imma stop talking about it now, its just ugh...
ANYWOO... i dont have much to rant about now... OH but i do have a question for you!!! yes you the fur/scalie/ zombie fur *shivers* who is reading this.

whats the longest period of time you stayed up? (omg that sounds so dirty. lol put your dirty and/or clean answer)

well thats all for now.. untill next time friends *huggles tightly*