right now idk i only feel rage hurt and sorrow but hey whatever crap happens and it doesnt matter if people you consioder frieneds sp[end all ther time wit5h the one they love instead of takinga single second to ask you how you are. im starting to hate the word love sure i wrote all thoise peoms about ;love but that is a past that may never be reawakened i just feel like i want to huert someone. i just want this to stop hurting me and \for me to shut up and finally stopp freaking complaining about all the problems i have but for real this time im at the edge and im at the point of doing something wstupid that i could wind up kicked out of my house i just want to feel joy and happiness in my life again but i dont know where to find it anymore