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In a bit of a conundrum....
18 years ago
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Well, things are crappy as of late. I've taken a break from painting da Boyz in order to practice my art, but then I ran across a new problem... I don't know how to practice. I know, I know, "Draw over and over and over again", gotcha. Here's the thing: I have no clue WHAT to draw. I could sit here and draw little circles and cones and rhombus' all day and learn nothing really. My problem is I lack inspiration and focus, and that SUCKS. Doesn't really help me out in anything really. I don't even really know why I can't draw either. Apparantley I have an artistic eye of sorts, at least regarding some things, like painting da Boyz. I just don't get it...
Well, at any rate, I've decided to for-go job searching and will begin the process of trying to get my sorry ass back into school. Before I do THAT though, I'm going to try to get tested for autism in the hopes that there's some program or what-ever to help me through it. At least, I HOPE it's autism I have. I don't even know what I might have anymore, or if I have anything at all. We've tried ADD, ADHD, depression (side-effects include thoughts of suicide. YA RLY!), NLD (non-verbal learning disorder), and so far there's no definitive answer. I'll have to find someone that will TEST me first, seeing as the place that tested me for ADD was a house of quacks who only wanted to push the then-new Zoloft on people. "Oh, you might have ADD brought on by depression, or you might have depression brought on by ADD". Thanks alot, Dr. Scratch-n-Sniff. Oh well, turns out this place doesn't test for autism anyways, nor do they know the number of anyone else who does (they made "Mental Health RESOURCES an oxy-moron, too. They're over-achievers, they are!).
I'm also growing quite sick of storms. Here on the plains, it's supposed to rain very little, yet lately it's just been day after day after day of thunder-storms. It always seems to happen whenever I tell myself "Gee, what a swell day! I think I'll go out to town and see what's happenin'!". Then the storm comes. Yippee. No out-side activities for me! -__-
Well, at any rate, I've decided to for-go job searching and will begin the process of trying to get my sorry ass back into school. Before I do THAT though, I'm going to try to get tested for autism in the hopes that there's some program or what-ever to help me through it. At least, I HOPE it's autism I have. I don't even know what I might have anymore, or if I have anything at all. We've tried ADD, ADHD, depression (side-effects include thoughts of suicide. YA RLY!), NLD (non-verbal learning disorder), and so far there's no definitive answer. I'll have to find someone that will TEST me first, seeing as the place that tested me for ADD was a house of quacks who only wanted to push the then-new Zoloft on people. "Oh, you might have ADD brought on by depression, or you might have depression brought on by ADD". Thanks alot, Dr. Scratch-n-Sniff. Oh well, turns out this place doesn't test for autism anyways, nor do they know the number of anyone else who does (they made "Mental Health RESOURCES an oxy-moron, too. They're over-achievers, they are!).
I'm also growing quite sick of storms. Here on the plains, it's supposed to rain very little, yet lately it's just been day after day after day of thunder-storms. It always seems to happen whenever I tell myself "Gee, what a swell day! I think I'll go out to town and see what's happenin'!". Then the storm comes. Yippee. No out-side activities for me! -__-
