Hadn't cried in like forever until then. But I spent my half hour mourning and got over it. Not to say I didn't love her, I'm just reaaaaaalllyyyy good at making things seem less significant than they are, it's a defense mechanism.
(>u.u)> i knows how ya feel had a russian blue who would come and sleep with me well more like on me but ;3; she was such a great cat but she was old and died T_T i really miss blue she was such a great kitty letting ya pick her up and not running away, ya could rub her belly tho she would give ya playfull bites
She will be greatly missed.