It's been five months since I broke up with Ryan.

Since then, I've been on this huge journey with myself.

I do honestly miss having a partner though, I miss having someone that I can work with, laugh with, play with....and of course after six years I'm missing the carnal aspect of a relationship. It's difficult for me to go so long without acting on my own needs, I sort of irritate myself with this too. :< I feel like sex shouldn't have any singular value to me, but it does, terribly so.

I'm so ready to be in a relationship again. I'm ready to be in love again. I'm ready to learn to trust again. It's going to take so long and I realize this but man, I'm ready.

I realized that the other day.

Life is back on track, things are going well, and I just want someone to share it with.