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IIIITS MMMMYYY BIRTHTDAY!!!!!! UPDATE... Not a good day.
15 years ago
o.o So I totally wanted to say that, I'm 22 and now I am older than dirt and there is really nothing to live for anymore.
Time to start trying to find medicare and a good doctor for a prostethic hip.
On a lighter note, I am spending the day with my mate... and its raining tigers and dire wolves outside. (raining cats and dogs outside, for those of you who didn't get the reference, just really heavy rain)
Annnnd ;D sheep!
Update
Found out today that
1. My dad put one of our cats down...
2. My mother has breast cancer.
And people wonder, why the fuck I have anxiety and depression issues? Should I list the other things?
1. my sixteen year old brother knocked his seventeen year old girlfriend up
2. my step dad died (bastard, didn't effect me at all, just my bro and sis)
3. Dad is having surgery and the last time he did, he died on the operating table. He's been out of work for the past two years, was laid off. Went back to school for additional education and since we don't have health insurance.. his motorcycle accident pretty much took most of the extra funds that we had. So there are financial issues to worry about on top of this.
4. I'm going to school for a degree I don't care a bit about and I can't change majors because I'm a year and a half away from finish it and my grandmother won't pay for the degree I want. I am hoping to go back after I graduate and get a degree in Art. It sucks when you realize what you want to do, way too late in your school career.
5. I am at a job I absolutely hate, I have daily anxiety attacks and I ask myself everyday why the hell I keep going back. Oh, that's right.. bills.
6. My stupid credi card that I ran up during school last year and I'ma lmost at my limit on.. and can't seem to fucking pay off.
7. Worried about boyfriend, that sorta thing. Its his private stuff so I'm not going into it.
8. I keep getting sick over and over and over again..
This plus other stuff is just what has been weighing in on me since january. I finally wen tto the doctor's for it and now I'm on xanax and celexa.
Its hard sometimes not to just crawl into a hole and say fuck the world.
I'm normally not one of these bitchy people, but I just had to get this off my chest.
Thank you.
Time to start trying to find medicare and a good doctor for a prostethic hip.
On a lighter note, I am spending the day with my mate... and its raining tigers and dire wolves outside. (raining cats and dogs outside, for those of you who didn't get the reference, just really heavy rain)
Annnnd ;D sheep!
Update
Found out today that
1. My dad put one of our cats down...
2. My mother has breast cancer.
And people wonder, why the fuck I have anxiety and depression issues? Should I list the other things?
1. my sixteen year old brother knocked his seventeen year old girlfriend up
2. my step dad died (bastard, didn't effect me at all, just my bro and sis)
3. Dad is having surgery and the last time he did, he died on the operating table. He's been out of work for the past two years, was laid off. Went back to school for additional education and since we don't have health insurance.. his motorcycle accident pretty much took most of the extra funds that we had. So there are financial issues to worry about on top of this.
4. I'm going to school for a degree I don't care a bit about and I can't change majors because I'm a year and a half away from finish it and my grandmother won't pay for the degree I want. I am hoping to go back after I graduate and get a degree in Art. It sucks when you realize what you want to do, way too late in your school career.
5. I am at a job I absolutely hate, I have daily anxiety attacks and I ask myself everyday why the hell I keep going back. Oh, that's right.. bills.
6. My stupid credi card that I ran up during school last year and I'ma lmost at my limit on.. and can't seem to fucking pay off.
7. Worried about boyfriend, that sorta thing. Its his private stuff so I'm not going into it.
8. I keep getting sick over and over and over again..
This plus other stuff is just what has been weighing in on me since january. I finally wen tto the doctor's for it and now I'm on xanax and celexa.
Its hard sometimes not to just crawl into a hole and say fuck the world.
I'm normally not one of these bitchy people, but I just had to get this off my chest.
Thank you.
*snugs*
Also, happy burfday. :b