I just wanted to let a few people know who I don't keep in contact with very often how I'm doing. First off, I'm finally getting better to the point where I'll be back in therapy here before I know it. I've still been getting stronger and stronger everyday, but for a while I was unable to do much with my legs due to being sick with an infection. It took me a little over 2 months to fight said infection, and in slue of things I have still managed to escape from it with little to no consequences. I'm coming up on month 6 of my recovery since my accident. I cannot believe how quickly time has gone by this year, then again I have been living in a completely altered state of reality prolly more than 90 percent of that time. Glad to say that I should be off that stuff in the next few months as I grow more tolerant to the pain in my back and legs. I've gotten this far and I don't see why I don't see myself by at least next year using a quad cane as my right leg seems to be the one that is having some more of the stability issues involving my balance. I work out hard and relentlessly despite how bad it might hurt, half the time I don't even know how bad it hurts until my medication wears off which is another reason why I have stayed on it this long. I'm not going to hurt myself, but I would much rather not feel the hurt as I'm trying to work out or do somethings involving alot of strenuous activity. Next week I will get back on a horse for the first time since my accident and I'm so lucky and grateful to have a team of therapists like I do at the Shepherd Center who went completely out of their way to locate and find places for me to enjoy horse back riding again with some of the prettiest ladies you could ever imagine =] I enjoy everything that place did for me and though I have a few regrets, I will never forget what it was that they did for me there. Took me in knowing I had no way of paying them back over a quarter of a million dollars in therapy and resources. I'm one lucky son of a bitch to be alive, and despite my current financial situation I will make it my life long goal to get my name up on that wall and to donate back every penny that was ever donated to me and to everyone who was on that list who had donated money to me when I was in the hospital. I love you all so much and think about you all the time when I am in the gym or in my house and am working hard or just recollecting on the good times I had before this happened to me and about the times I will continue to have that are absolutely going to be memorable and just as much so as the years previous to this.

Life is fucking beautiful and you can't try and tell me that it isn't. A very special friend of mine comes to visit here this month and I'm nervous as hell and very excited at the same time =] I love you!! Also, I will be at FF next month and hope to meet some more new friends and put some faces on ones that I already might have known and not yet gotten a chance to unite with. Until then take care *big pitbull hugs*

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ps. xavier I miss you!!