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15 years ago
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OK...I knew this day was coming, but here it is...
For those of you new to "watching" me this will not mean much to you, but to those who at least kind of know me....the day has finally come.
After coming back from WA to get head straight, I discovered that nothing had changed and I had just being hiding and running away from everything. So it only made me feel more down and crappy. The next week I had my counselling session and well...it was suggested that I should start taking anti depressants. I have already looked into it and I just don’t want to, not just yet. I know all the benefits etc....but there is another choice. Instead of covering up all the worry, I’m going to go away for a little while.
No, I’m not doing anything stupid; I have other options before that. So I’m flying back to Western Australia tomorrow, staying with my brothers for the night then going down with them to my family home and spending father’s day. After that...I’m going to tell my parents that I’m gay. I’m a little bit excited but mainly terrified. My brothers are ok with it, one is really supportive and the other is just meh.
But as the deadline gets closer I can’t help but feel more scared. Since I told my brothers I’ve been second guessing everything about who I am. But I think it’s just that I’m lonely and scared. Before my family knew it was still my secret, my alter ego so to speak.
I'm not really sure what I’m trying to say now...but...well there you go. Just letting you know the latest. Thank you everyone for your support and kind words, I’ll be back one day...
Until then, do what makes you happy and always smile.
Vamero.
For those of you new to "watching" me this will not mean much to you, but to those who at least kind of know me....the day has finally come.
After coming back from WA to get head straight, I discovered that nothing had changed and I had just being hiding and running away from everything. So it only made me feel more down and crappy. The next week I had my counselling session and well...it was suggested that I should start taking anti depressants. I have already looked into it and I just don’t want to, not just yet. I know all the benefits etc....but there is another choice. Instead of covering up all the worry, I’m going to go away for a little while.
No, I’m not doing anything stupid; I have other options before that. So I’m flying back to Western Australia tomorrow, staying with my brothers for the night then going down with them to my family home and spending father’s day. After that...I’m going to tell my parents that I’m gay. I’m a little bit excited but mainly terrified. My brothers are ok with it, one is really supportive and the other is just meh.
But as the deadline gets closer I can’t help but feel more scared. Since I told my brothers I’ve been second guessing everything about who I am. But I think it’s just that I’m lonely and scared. Before my family knew it was still my secret, my alter ego so to speak.
I'm not really sure what I’m trying to say now...but...well there you go. Just letting you know the latest. Thank you everyone for your support and kind words, I’ll be back one day...
Until then, do what makes you happy and always smile.
Vamero.
*hugs* good luck hun :)
*hugs...
think of this - you told your brothers, so they probably have told your parents so the ground has already been broken. Trust me - they will still love you.
V.