I would have posted this yesterday but alot of things came up and I didn't have the chance. ^^u

And to also point out that i did meet with my father and while the reason of why he did what he did and that he acknowledged what he did was wrong, it is not just the matter of time and the direction of the path to see on how long the trust could be rebuild and made better.

Anyway, onto what this post is really about.

To those that have been reading my post and what not, it has been a full year ever since the events with the two girls that betrayed my trust by not telling me the truth. It is not like I am still mourning, pinning or what not; it is just as I was about to come to terms; the events with my father happened and that became the focus. Now that everything is settled, this is being brought up as it was not resolve yet personally.

Looking back on it, I had a feeling that it would happen. After Hakiri and myself separated on good terms and when I tried to contact her, she never responded back. I felt that deep in my being, that maybe she found someone where she lived. Of course I push the idea away as I thought it was something out of fear and worry. I believe that even if that was true, she would at least tell me about.

But of course we all know how that turned out ^^u. And even finding out that the other girl, her friend, actually became engaged which she basically followed her example.

So it wasn't the fact that the love was hurt, it was the fact that my trust in them was damaged by not telling me the truth and even to go as far as to make it sound like I was the one at fault.

Of course that was a year ago and alot of things have happened; though times but with good times as well.

Now my friend asked me the question of how do I feel about them now. Do I hate them?

In truth......... No I don't.

Of course I don't love them anymore nor trust them, however I still wonder on how they are doing and hope that everything is alright. I don't go anymore because as they and they're friends all boasted for me to stay out of their lives for good, I intend to keep that promise.

In the end, all I can really feel for them is pity. Because no matter what they say, they basically let their fears take control of them and they made their choices because of it.

And with this post, I can finally put this and my father's action in the past and truly move on.

Ironically enough, I'm starting to feel my wings starting to spread once again, stronger then before. ^^