i was able to talk to my buddy Dracul, who, if you are reading this, may know me through him. it seems my buddy is been on hard times for a while, he got a job but he had to quit because he couldnt' stomach it ,trust me . .if i was in his place i would've done the same chicken liver. . *shudders* nasty!. anyways, i've know it sounds wrong, but a part of me is inspired on how he's able to bear so much and not just pull out a weapon and solve his problems with violence. I think it really proves he has true potential to be a great person, even if he's on hard times mentally and physically. All i can really do for him is support him, but i wish i could do more, yet I'm glad for what i do for him, to help lighten his load even if its just a little, and maybe try to make him smile. I truely am a shining flame in the dark in this cold and dark world to him at times, but i sometimes wish i was not the only one, i wish there was a way that i could bring him more hope. so i have to ask all of you out there, have you had anyone depend on you in a hard time for sanity? if you have, then maybe i'm not all that alone, i'm just not "bright" enough. *rimshot*. . . Yeah, that was a bad joke, even i couldn't really pull it off at this time. but seriously, give me a shoutout if you've ever needed/helped a friend to keep them sane. I would appreciate it, and maybe in the longrun, shine a little brighter, and learn enough to gude my buddy out of this hellhole we call Arkansas! no offense to those who loverthat state, but my buddy is a Mississippi Wolf by heart, and he doesn't like being forced to be there, thats all.