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Out of the tunnel and feeling somewhat shellshocked.
15 years ago
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Well folks, My Father has known I'm gay for 24hours and I’m still at my parent’s home. I have now let my escape plans relax. As I just wait to get out of here.
After everything, I’m not home anymore.....this is just a house where my parents and possessions live. Home is where the heart is. Its going to take a long time before a heart beats here again. The only reason dad hasn’t done anything is because I haven’t asked him about it.....I've learnt my lesson from talking to my mother. In my previous journal I left out something...something I was shocked and ashamed of my mother. When I was trying to understand what her view was I suggested "Don’t ask don’t tell policy?" She agreed...it took so much control not to slap her in the face and leave home. Her agreeing to that means, she loves me as her son, not who I am. I can’t deal with that shit; it’s all up to her now.
I plan to leave soon, fly back to Darwin and get back to work and studying; it’s up to my parents to deal with it now. I've done what I came to do and its time to go home....where my other family lives. Workmates, work and a unit.....that is where I live and love,
Thank you for everything everyone....
Much love,
Vamero.
After everything, I’m not home anymore.....this is just a house where my parents and possessions live. Home is where the heart is. Its going to take a long time before a heart beats here again. The only reason dad hasn’t done anything is because I haven’t asked him about it.....I've learnt my lesson from talking to my mother. In my previous journal I left out something...something I was shocked and ashamed of my mother. When I was trying to understand what her view was I suggested "Don’t ask don’t tell policy?" She agreed...it took so much control not to slap her in the face and leave home. Her agreeing to that means, she loves me as her son, not who I am. I can’t deal with that shit; it’s all up to her now.
I plan to leave soon, fly back to Darwin and get back to work and studying; it’s up to my parents to deal with it now. I've done what I came to do and its time to go home....where my other family lives. Workmates, work and a unit.....that is where I live and love,
Thank you for everything everyone....
Much love,
Vamero.
I hope all goes well for you! And yes you are right home is where your heart find it's mate!
Femm
Thank you so much for your kind words Femmpaws *hugs back*
I know it really messes with peoples heads!
Over the years I have had more of my old friends ask me if I have a boyfriend. And they give me a blank look when I say no, and that I still like being with a woman.
But I know how family can be behind your back! Really the best thing you can do is just be yourself and live and love life in spite of them. Because you have family and then you have FAMILY!
Femm
Thank you so much for your kind words Femmpaws *hugs back*
Your going back to where your home is, and you've left that door open for them.
Relax and enjoy your home of the heart! ^^