its apparent that my efforts to clear my sullied name are fruitless ever since these blasted rumors started my friends were corrupted by them they have since alienated me they refuse to talk to me and block me when i try to merely converse or comment a pic in politics i learned crowds are easily lead this seems to be quite true in my case as mere rumors turned a group of people i once looked up to and admired as my friends into a group who now shunned me ive tried to move on but those who i may or may not have wronged remind me of my past or what they concieve to be true about me i grow tired of it tired of crying tired of being bullied, ridiculed, blocked, betrayed and hurt though ive also befriended new people i try not to tell them of my past or the people who are out to ruin me but some know im innocent and have fought back against the people who are after me im so cautious of what i say now i often wish i could change the things ive done but its become clear i dont think they will ever forgive me or accept me again i admit back then i was wild and often got overinvolved in things but im autistic so i tend to get carried away i doubt informing them of that fact will change anything though its really sad watching them have all the fun knowing i cant join but i refuse to let them win i know im innocent i have friends who know im innocent and ill continue my life and draw art here regardless of what they say but if they are reading this now all i can say is "im sorry for everything and i miss you guys ill alway remember the good times and i hope to someday be given a second chance"....i need a hug now im really sad ill still be producing art though so expect more from me comment if you desire