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Hello world, or rather the probably 8 or less people who will read this. how are you doing? I am not well atm but by the time I finish writing this, things may be different. I cannot sleep tonight because my mind is flooded with very bad and sad memories of my past. My past, and particularly my past in the furry fandom has had a dark black cloud over it. This is in thanks to a select few, but thats not what I'm here to talk about, nor will I even if you ask. But anyway aside from nights like tonight I have been slowly getting better. when I say better I mean where I can actually get out of bed or whatever, or the days where I dont just wish I had never joined furry, or that I had actually died in one of my incidents I have had that could easily have taken my life. Finally after years of trying to find out who I am and make friends that are truly friends and not just phony jackasses who will only use me to get what they want I am actually doing it (I hope). I still am set back by not only those who will only LIE to me just to get what they want, but by those who wont even take the time to lie to me, let alone get to know the real me (this is because they were possibly told lies about me from a third party) but onward time marches.
I recently got to spend a weekend with some of the most wonderful people anybody would ever have the chance to meet. It was the best weekend I have had in a long long time, and I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of those I had the pleasure of spending time with, and I hope we can do it again soon. Also I would like all of you to know you are welcome in my home anytime you want or need.
Also in my weekend I was finally able to have some private time with extended family and tell them I am gay. This has been a long time coming and I had been waiting for an opportunity to do it, which I finally got. I have not yet seen the consequences of this yet, but they dont seem to be bad. hopefully when it gets back to my mom and dad nothing bad will happen. Best case scenario is that they will do their normal thing and not talk to me about it. "ignore it and its not true" :/ ...Now if I only had somebody special in my life for support should I need it.
Do any of you like stories? or know of another who likes stories? If so please let me know. I have been toying around with the idea of writing some furry stories. I haven't written any furry stories that I have ever shared here yet, nor have I written any fiction in quite some time, but I think it may be time. So here's what I want from you: what type of story do you want to see? and what characters do you want? I am more than happy to make up characters, but if you would like to see yours or a friends character in a story then let me know, I may be able to accommodate your wishes. Nothing about this is set in stone.
Does anybody want anything I have to offer? I think its time to let some things go. Anything you want will be good deals if not free. If I dont have it then sorry, cant help you.
I guess I could probably babble on for another long time, but I have taken up enough of your time. I'm sorry for this being so long and pointless to you, but to me, on this night its what I had to do. Goodnight, Good luck.
-Prowler
I recently got to spend a weekend with some of the most wonderful people anybody would ever have the chance to meet. It was the best weekend I have had in a long long time, and I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of those I had the pleasure of spending time with, and I hope we can do it again soon. Also I would like all of you to know you are welcome in my home anytime you want or need.
Also in my weekend I was finally able to have some private time with extended family and tell them I am gay. This has been a long time coming and I had been waiting for an opportunity to do it, which I finally got. I have not yet seen the consequences of this yet, but they dont seem to be bad. hopefully when it gets back to my mom and dad nothing bad will happen. Best case scenario is that they will do their normal thing and not talk to me about it. "ignore it and its not true" :/ ...Now if I only had somebody special in my life for support should I need it.
Do any of you like stories? or know of another who likes stories? If so please let me know. I have been toying around with the idea of writing some furry stories. I haven't written any furry stories that I have ever shared here yet, nor have I written any fiction in quite some time, but I think it may be time. So here's what I want from you: what type of story do you want to see? and what characters do you want? I am more than happy to make up characters, but if you would like to see yours or a friends character in a story then let me know, I may be able to accommodate your wishes. Nothing about this is set in stone.
Does anybody want anything I have to offer? I think its time to let some things go. Anything you want will be good deals if not free. If I dont have it then sorry, cant help you.
I guess I could probably babble on for another long time, but I have taken up enough of your time. I'm sorry for this being so long and pointless to you, but to me, on this night its what I had to do. Goodnight, Good luck.
-Prowler
First of all,I´m doing great at the moment...I was also away from my home last weekend and I have to say that I needed that,I spended weekend with my little sister and met her boyfriend and her 2 friends for the first time.
Otherwise I have been tried to think what to do now,try to find a job and apply for a 4 month long course so i would improve my skills and my confidence for getting job...made also pre reg for AC 2011 yesterday.
Well enough of me,let´s focus on you:i hope that you would get your mind stop overflowing the bad memories in your past,cause you are sweetest person in furry fandom that i have been proud to meet and i would be happy to meet you in real life too.
If you come to AC,expect to get hugs from this Finnish lion friend ^^
I´m glad that you also got a chance to have wonderful weekend and I hope also that your family would be still proud of you after coming out of closet.
Even if they might not show that to you,they knows that it´s your life and they can be really proud of their son and sweet family member.
About making stories,i would be curious to read your stories and i don´t exactly know what kind of stories you should do or what characters you should put on stories,but as long as you let your imagination fly on stories,I´m excited to read those ^^
Anyway I am actually apart of a GSA on my campus, and I encourage people to talk to me, and I am doing the same to you, if you need someone to talk to, I am here, were not close but sometimes a third party can do wonders.
Till then I toast a drink to you moving forward in your life and congraduations on coming out!
Sorry you were outed by somebody disrespectful.
I think you should write some stories, short stories or a novel, up to you :P. I would love to read them. I think you should write stories with adventure, mystery, love, romance. Now all that does not have to be in one, but a story with elements from both or just focusing on one of the other. Character wise you should have a mixture of characteristics and personalities. There can be a variety of species in your stories, but I think there should be a wolf character, possibly a white wolf too. I may just be biased though
The only think I want from you Prowler is your friendship. I want your friendship for the rest of my life. And you definitely didn't waste my time.
I understand that life can be a rocky road.
Clearly, you have many good friends, me included.
Anything you write, I'll read happily.
As long as it has tri colored mutts in it...
You are one of the very few I consider true friends ^^ And i'll keep supporting you no matter what, you know where to find me when you need a friend.
I would like you to read this journal, find the text in bold and read below it. :3 http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1744175/
Comments on Turic's last ten journals: 1,7,2,2,4,1,2,2,1,1
only 1 of yours is below 10, mine never reaches 10
Just wandered through your FA this morning. Sorry to hear things are going rough. Furry is a mixed bag, and although I've made lifelong friends and met my partner through the fandom, it's got a heaping helping of drama. What's important to me, and what I am continually trying to discover, are folks who mean more to me than just fans of suits or art or whatever. Sounds like you have found some friends, but are aware that fellow furry doesn't equate to instant friend.
Anyway, just wanted to say hey and wish you well. Oh, and thanks for the watch - I forget, have we met? *big hugs*