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In the Conflict with Darkness >:D and Purity ^w^
15 years ago
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Hello all.. Today 4th October, I was in a crisis.
My evil conscience is in the battle against my good conscience.
It not like those normal battles that everybody has everyday like "do the right" "no the the wrong" stuff... It's more difficult and it involves my body as well... So far, in this battle the evil finally found out my weaknesses and is taking advantage of them, and the Weak Tigerwolf as I am, fell in this temptation of doing bad everyday, especially with friends, family and my part time job (kinda like Spiderman3).
If you see me kicking, punching or making loud noises and stuff, its because I'm trying to resist from doing anything harmful, as much I can say, I am involved not only physically but even mentally, so if you hear my voice tremble or whimper, that means this conflict hurts not only my mind but even my heart.
And if somebody gets close to comfort me irl, i might fall in tears because nobody ever asked me how I really feel in my life, or they weren't interested and i have no cuddly buddies in my hometown whatsoever. =(
Thats why irl I hide my emotions and act cold around people... because I dont know who to trust or not anymore...
I really wish that all my best buddies met online, would someday come over in Italy, and help me out of this Death Trap of my Mind.
I'm happy I met you all, and you are all true pals.
But lately I dont know how to come out of this, if not abandon everything and wipe my mind clean (i can do that. I did it when I wanted to forget something, and I forgot almost half the day).
I love you
Regidor
Zackx1
and rest of my best friends..
Please never abandon me <3
Regidor
Zackx1
thecoywolfzearoth
~thedarkwolfzearoth
I won't abandon you hun *hugs tight* I wish I could hold you IRL to help you feel better.
Michel-89angelus
~michel-89angelus
OP
o.O o-okay *hugs back* thanks tho
thecoywolfzearoth
~thedarkwolfzearoth
RL cuddles always help ^_^
Michel-89angelus
~michel-89angelus
OP
i know... thats why i whimper every night ._.
thecoywolfzearoth
~thedarkwolfzearoth
I dont have anyone to hold IRL either hun, I know how you feel. Just like you my mate isn't with me IRL yet.
Michel-89angelus
~michel-89angelus
OP
...and that's the sad part unfortunately. If my mate was here now... *sighs* ..it would be 100 % different
thecoywolfzearoth
~thedarkwolfzearoth
I know the feeling
Michel-89angelus
~michel-89angelus
OP
*cuddles* thanks for caring
Regidor
~regidor
sitting down and thinking hard how to solve the problem about my mate mind "Hmmm......that most be a way to help"
zackx1
~zackx1
hmmm, I see it seems it is going take alot of work to overcome bad side. but basicaly the key you need to over come it always seems to around the keyword love. the stronger the feeling the easy something is overcome. even if that love is for a thing, places or person... well that is basically all I say. good luck in your battle.
Michel-89angelus
~michel-89angelus
OP
*huggles tight* thankyou big bro
zackx1
~zackx1
No big -huggles back-
