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And now departure from France. A call to potential new bonds
15 years ago
First, thank you everybody for reading my journals and being here with me when I need to.
I don't know what I am doing. I make every member of my family sad with my departure. I don't know how sad would my friends from Montreal be if I left Montreal like that...
On the other side, my cousin congratulated me a few days ago for the courage I had to move to Canada and leave my family, where she has not been able to. It's right that I'm gonna keep in touch on webcam with my family and such. I should not feel worried about anything I think, even if I don't know if I'll ever see my parents again according to their very fragile and random health status.
My mother told me how she did not want me to let my worries and sadness get on the way of my Canadian life. I'm glad about that, but what is my Canadian life so far? A job with good potential? A friend who feels like a brother to me, yet, is gonna leave me in less than a year? My other friends?
I don't want anything to be taboo anymore. I spoke with an open heart with my mother, so, there is no reason that I should not do as well with my friends from the community.
I think I need to look forward to develop bonds with you guys.
Let me know if you do too, because I want, in the name of my family's sacrifice, to fully take advantage of my life on the other continent.
Feel free to reply directly here or by sending me a note.
Thanks.
I don't know what I am doing. I make every member of my family sad with my departure. I don't know how sad would my friends from Montreal be if I left Montreal like that...
On the other side, my cousin congratulated me a few days ago for the courage I had to move to Canada and leave my family, where she has not been able to. It's right that I'm gonna keep in touch on webcam with my family and such. I should not feel worried about anything I think, even if I don't know if I'll ever see my parents again according to their very fragile and random health status.
My mother told me how she did not want me to let my worries and sadness get on the way of my Canadian life. I'm glad about that, but what is my Canadian life so far? A job with good potential? A friend who feels like a brother to me, yet, is gonna leave me in less than a year? My other friends?
I don't want anything to be taboo anymore. I spoke with an open heart with my mother, so, there is no reason that I should not do as well with my friends from the community.
I think I need to look forward to develop bonds with you guys.
Let me know if you do too, because I want, in the name of my family's sacrifice, to fully take advantage of my life on the other continent.
Feel free to reply directly here or by sending me a note.
Thanks.
*Hugs.* We need to talk more!
I checked out your post from comic #9. As long as you're doing something to live your life, you are in the clear. I don't have the great family life you've enjoyed and I've been largely controlled by mine. I want to escape in the worst way, but am stuck at this time.
Just look towards the bright future. I do every day.
Those are questions that burns, I have experienced it befor, tho probably not to such an extrem degree, Icheo is experiencing them right now.
I'm here and I'm open to bond, I know it isn't much, but I really do wanna make you happy. I'm sorry if I haven't been very available recently, I really want to make the people around me happy, but it proves to be very hard. Icheo is traversing a really stressfull period right now, and I've been devoting all my attention to him.
I will be there, and I will try to make myself more available.
*bearhugs back* The main purpose why I want to make bonds is the feeling of incertitude that I got since I arrived in Canada. I did not plan that before getting there, but when I heard that my wolf would eventually go back to his side of Canada, I realized that, at some point, I would end up alone and that's why I want to know who is here for me.
I did this whole trip to be with somebody who won't be there staying with me and when I left France, I made everybody crying in my family. I really feel like I took the wrong decision if I don't make bonds, if I don't feel like I have another family here.
Thanks for being here for me, but don't feel like you need to make everybody happy, just be yourself and, if we are friends, you will naturally make me happy just as much as you'll instinctively make anybody happy. This is not something that you should force on you. Otherwise, you'll end up drained at some point.
Hope to see you this Friday! And hopefully Icheo too.
Would you like to join? Tomorrow unfortunately, it's likely I won't be free in the end :/
We shall stay in touch then. I'm on msn almost 24/7, it's not hard to reach me ;)