Hi everyone...

Guess I should start off with an apology. I'm sorry for up and out going crazy. I just have had so much on my plate for so long. Having MS I've been having to go to the hospital every four weeks to get blood drawn and get medicine pumped into me; it's just been too much for me to take, and even after that's all done I have to give myself shots for the rest of my life to keep my condition from flaring up again. Atop that I also have other surprise appointments, some of which involve me having to get my wisdom teeth yanked out, get caps, also have a root canal done.

This go without saying that all of that it has surfaced a lot of mental problems, some of which it has also worsened. My bipolar disorder has become so bad I can actually feel my emotions changing before they even had. I spend a lot of time in a pit of depression before I fly into a rage. I can't describe any of you how hard it is on me, but most of that is from having to work so hard to get something to work correctly, which never really does in my eyes. Within me it has brewed a resentment of some people who I feel don't have to work nearly as hard as me and still get more attention. I'm not pointing fingers, but that's just how my mind is...

This isn't out of a cry for pity, but I would just appreciate more input on my art. I don't feel that favorites mean much to me if there are no words to say just how well I'm doing, or what I could do different, or change all together. I don't know, I suppose just hearing some critique would help to bring my spirits up. I prefer for them not to be vulgar without reason, just something constructive if anyone could help it.

From what I've said above you could say my heart and mind are in disarray, and continuing to be getting worse. I'm not sure what could be done to fully help me, but any little bit could help. I'm going to try to move away from lusting pictures and into more serious arts. While I find lustful works entertaining, that, I feel, is all they're good for -- a short moment of enjoyment.

Tomorrow I'm going into see my neurologist so, I'm hopefully also going to stop by the store and get another tablet. I hope with all my heart that some of you would still look forward to seeing my art put up, even it they take weeks to make. I'll do my best.

My sincerest thanks to my friends who helped me to get the strength to some back and to my mate  lorimay