I need to blow off some steam, so you get to read this. Back out now if you want.
I haven't wanted to write in about two months. This worries me. I've forced myself to write, but I just can't get myself to do it anymore. I've had a lot going on in my life of late, but I can't help but feel like it's more than that. I feel like there is simply a mental block that refuses to let me be happy. I can sometimes peek through the cracks of this wall and see what it's like to be happy, but I can't genuinely feel it for longer than a few hours at best.
I feel like I'm putting others before me, really. I know that I shouldn't, but I like to please people. It's pretty much the only thing keeping me from going completely off the grid for a while.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just off. It could be stress. It could be something else. Who knows? I'm pretty much just going to post this for attention, even though I'm not sure if I really want the attention that this'll bring. I hate drama so much.