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FINAL UPDATE

15 years ago

CLICK HERE TO HEAR THE THEME SONG OF THE HIPPIEMOUSE CREATED BY

Your love,is lifting me higher....Than i've ever been lifted before

Got kicked off my cousins property(he was worried about some county fine against living in a tent)

Living with my mom....AGAIN....someone just kill me...im too pathetic to live.

Currently looking for an apartment in Owosso Michigan so that i can be closer to mudpaws.

Mom tells me that,as of Tuesday the 26th we shall have internet here...however...due to recent events
i will not be as active online as i once was...in the past 4 months i have been thru too much heartache,stress and BS....recent events have become like the proverbial straw that broke the camels back....i am currently not the happy friendly mouse you all know and love...
Ive become angry,bitter,argumentative and confrontational.....if i wasn't a pacifist and HATE real life violence i would most likely be going to bars and picking a fight with the biggest dude there just so i could have someone i can take this anger out on

That being said...until i post a journal stating i am back to normal i must ask a favor from everyone...
If you happen to see me on second life or messenger....don't talk to me...please...unless i initiate conversation with you then don't talk to me...i ask this because i don't want to hurt anyone...in my current state i am prone to verbally lashing out in anger at anyone who makes themselves available.

The only person i can really talk to right now without lashing out at them is my nephew

Cindercheth a groovy carebear cousin.
I swear dude...talking to you for an hour is like a week of extensive therapy...i would be in far worse shape emotionally and mentally right now if it was not for you dude....thanks man...totally

Well thats pretty much it...so ill leave you with a song that i currently relate to 100%
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIxEISCUN3k
Gotta be the most beautiful musical team up since Mercury and Bowie did Under Pressure

may your days and nights be filled with love and peace my friends...TTFN

15 Comments

yaegashi ∞yaegashi

Writer

15 years ago

*gives the mouse a hug and sighs a little* if you ever need to talk you can call me or message me hon. I am more then strong enough to take verbal lashings and all. *nuzzles*

hippiemouse ~hippiemouse

Photographer

15 years ago

Maybe you guys could take my anger...but i have no desire to put anyone thru that...specially you ya groovy kitty dude...it is better that i keep my distance from everyone till i can find my inner balence and return to my normal groovy state
*hugs back*
However it is really kind of you to offer.............and brave

yaegashi ∞yaegashi

Writer

15 years ago

*hugs you more and carries you off to somewhere nice and cool and peaceful* well you know I am always here for ya mousers. Love you groovey boy.

ManectricMan ~manectricman

Digital Artist

15 years ago

Please...please, if you need someone to talk to, please contact me on MSN or Skype, should you have either. I love you, man. And if I can even help for a few minutes, I'll do it. If you need someone to vent at, just say so, I'll take it in stride. I can't stand seeing you like this. You're too nice to deal with this bullshit.

hippiemouse ~hippiemouse

Photographer

15 years ago

i could never put you thru that dude....you are just like me....our oversized hearts are both a blessing and a curse to us man....compassionet,loving and caring to a fault...not to mention as fragile as paper thin glass

ManectricMan ~manectricman

Digital Artist

15 years ago

You need someone to talk to, Mousey. Having someone to confide in is good, but having a whole group of people who will always remind you how much they love you is truly one of the best things in the world...please, whenever you feel upset, please talk to me...(hugs you tight) I love you, man.

TheTatteredKitty ~thetatteredkitty

Anthro Artist

15 years ago

I-I's A Natural Punchings Baggies.... Sowie Tos Hears Yous Ins A Mess..... Mmm.... Mes Continues Tos Waits Hears Fur Your Weturns.... Goods Lucks Mousy Guys.

*Sigh And Hugs Limply*

hippiemouse ~hippiemouse

Photographer

15 years ago

*hugs back*
Mondo thanks dude...but as i said in the journal....i dont want to lash out at anyone....it is just not me....sides...its bad karma as well

dotter ~dotter

Writer

15 years ago

I wish you healing. May you know joy again soon. TTYL

hippiemouse ~hippiemouse

Photographer

15 years ago

Mondo thanks Dotter dude....but i am begining to wonder if i am destind to be alone in this current incarnation...anytime i start to feel happy with someone that damm Murphey throws his stupid law in my face ruining everything....damm Murphey's Law is REALLY pissing me off

taipe ~taipe

Watcher

15 years ago

:: tight hug ::
I hope you will be better soon.

hippiemouse ~hippiemouse

Photographer

15 years ago

i should be....ive got plenty of groovy friends who care about me...that alone cools the anger a little bit

taipe ~taipe

Watcher

15 years ago

I'm glad.
:: tight hug ::

Cristiann123 ~cristiann123

Musician

15 years ago

*hugs softly and kisses your nose* Hun, things will get better. You're in my prayers, and I really hope you get better. Shit seems to happen to the best people out there, but things have to get better for you, cause I think you're such a sweet guy. Your life is going to get better, I know it. And should you ever want, you can talk to me. I don't mind if you do lash out, being beaten with metal studded belts when i was a kid made me the strong accepting man I am today. *licks softly* hang in there mousey

hippiemouse ~hippiemouse

Photographer

15 years ago

Thank you for the kind offer dude...however i cant allow myself to lash out...bad karma...i dont want to hurt anyone....and in my current state...i can be downright cruel....as an empath i have a knack of saying just the right thing at the right time to seriously help someone or seriously hurt someone...in my current angry and bitter state this ability would be used to hurt whomever i lash out at.

I am ok in forums and posts like this where i can think for hours(or days) about how to respond but in something instant like mesenger or phone i would have no time to calm my mind and heart before saying something and so would run the risk of lashing out.

*sighs and enjoys the cyberhugs and gentle licks as a tear slides down my cheeck*

I just wish i could find a mate who loves me enough to move me in with him(or moves in with me)...someone who loves me enough to not keep hurting me with breife visits and painful goodbyes...someone who actually wants to share his life and bed with....all i want is to be loved...daily...to go to sleep in the arms of a man who loves me and wake up in the morning to his slumbering face as the first thing i see upon waking

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