ok, so me and Lucas started our phone call with my moping about how bitchy and slanderous my mom can be... she took it apon herself to blab about my gayness in all the most disgusting ways she could to my bestest (straight) friend of 8+years, Zack... so now he knows i'm gay, but has the wrong idea. Marcus, Zack's roommate and newest good good friend of mine already knew, but i told him myself. he's really a great guy ^.=.^.... and so is Zack! imean, don't get me wrong he really is,i just know he'd prolly try to "fix" me if i came out to him... which is why i didn't tell him.

so, now i'm pissed at my mom, and just when i was starting to forgive her for blabbing to the college faculty to try and "fix" me.... blegh.

aaaaanyway! so we talked, and Lucas made me feel much better about the state of things and i made him feel better about being in a long-ish distance relationship..

i told him nomatter what (the what part here being that i know gay people up here) i'd always want only him and that i was going to always be there, that i wanted to be his partner... and then we talked aout our christian lives and being gay and what we would and wouldn't do hypothetically if we lived together and how we agreed that getting "married" is prolly best for people who want to make babies but, if it ever came to it, we could get a joint partnership thingy (i can't remember what they're called... yaknow where you share a reduced tax plan and financial stuff like that...) when suddenly, i hear my Lucas proposing to me! he asked if i really wanted to be partners, LIFE partners.



and what else could i say but yes?



so it's official. i don't know what exactly to call US but Lucas and i, we're a team, partners, together forever, two and one... we're.... engaged

i was so happy i had to pull the phone away so as not to bleed my fiancé's ears as i shook the twilit soccer field with a mighty dragon roar.... or at least that's how it went in my head. in reality i just screamed and whooped like a total moron. but i didn't care. i felt GOOD. i still feel good. elated. ecstatic. euphoric! nothing could hurt me right now. nothing.

and now, a few words to my dearly beloved:

i Love you Lucas. my precious blue sparkle. my ocean eyes. my Hope Beyond a Sahdow. i hereby vow to make the best mate for you that i can be. i vow to always cherrish you, to respect and honor you as my mate and never look on anyone the way i look at you. i vow to never treat you like a toy or trophy, i vow to always love and support you, to pick you up when you're down, to listen when you need an ear, to be your sigarrette , to always make you smile, and to always hold you close. for better or worse i vow to never leave your side. like the song says "if the bombs go off, the sun will still be shining, because i've heard is said that every mushroom cloud has a silver lining" i'll always be with you Lucas, and i'll never stop loving you...
*a-he-he-hem!*
*-erm!*
*ack*
*sign*

.............. *soft mucis begins to play*..... what? you know me, hun. how could you NOT expect something corny like this?

..... You're the Sky that I fell through
and I remember the view, whenever i'm holding You.
The sun hung from a string
looking down on the world as it warms over everything.

Chills run down my spine
as our fingers intwine, and Your sighs harmonise with mine.
Unmistakebly, I can still feel Your heart be fast when You dance with me.

We got older, and I should have known (Do you feel alive?)
that I'd feel colder when I walk alone. (Oh, but you'll survive)
So I may as well ditch my dismay.
Bombs away......... Bombs away........

Circle me, and the needle moves gracefully back and forth...
If my heart was a compass You'd be North!
Risk it all, cause I'll catch You if You fall. Wherever you go...
If my heart was a house You'd be home!

*small interlude*

It makes me smile because You said it best:
"I would truely be blessed, if the sun rose up from the west."
Flower-Bomb perfume...
All my clothes smell like You, cause Your favorite shad is Navy Blue.

I walk slowly when I'm on my own (Do you feel alive?)
Yeah, but frankly i still feel alone (Oh, but you'll survive)
So, I may as well ditch my dismay.
Bombs away......... Bombs away.........

*gets really low and quiet*
Circle me, and the needle moves gracefully back and forth...
If my heart was a compass You'd be North.
*gets loud again*
Risk it all, cause I'll catch You if You fall. Wherever you go...
If my heart was a house You'd be home!

If my heart was a house You'd be home!


...... *whispers* and you're always welcome :heart: