So, my students are proving to be utterly uninterestable (not a word, I KNOW) but they are unable to be interested in learning for the most part, and don't put up any efforts no matter how much I do. So this week I do some free grade giving instead of a final, since nobody did the work for the last month, and if I fail a class, I get in trouble as a teacher (acceptable ratio of F's to passing grades is less than 30%, thank you NCLB). So free grades for all, and lets pass you on with no real learning!

Then, mom with her medical problems flies to Michigan, where she has been thwarted at every turn by insurance going back on their word and refusing to pay for the treatments they preauthorized and flew her there for. She now sits in a room being driven insane by nothing to do in a Bed and Breakfast place, waiting to get into the clinic.

The day she leaves, grandma, who I love dearly, goes to the hospital and not only is now weak and may take a while to recover, but her grip on reality slipped majorly. Now she seems mostly okay but now needs a walker and cries a lot, because she feels a burden to everyone.

So I spend this weekend grading awful papers, which I CANT fail, can only give C's to most. Taking care of Grandma, keeping my sick cat and grandmas dog separate. (Kitty got sick the day AFTER grandma) And I have awful migraines. Wonder why? Then my boyfriend goes to see the movie we've planned to see together for three months without me, with some other friends. And he can't understand why Im upset, since he'll take me to see it later..... I know Im not the only one who would be upset right now. I yelled at him a bit too much though, between everything I know I overreact. But damn that was special to me and I was looking forward to it after all this.... :.:

Mostly I feel bad that I can't make everything better for everyone, including myself, and that I can't be understood by the people I love most...

I'll go on, because it's not the end of the world, but this is certainly a lousy lousy time of the year...