JournalUpdate, November 2010 – Digital Deluxe Edition
15 years ago
Wooh boy, this has been a loooooooong time coming >_>.
I hardly know where to begin; the last few months have been some of the busiest but most productive and happy of my life. Graduate classes and work have me working 10+ hours most days- I’ve had to cut back a lot on my extracurricular activities- but I’m still holding my ground! (crosses fingers)
I don’t usually like to talk too much about my personal life in a public forum, but just this once I feel it’s necessary. It’s been a little over two years since I came out to my friends; a year and change since I started writing and posting stories. Even though furry smut really helped me come to terms with my sexuality, I would never have imagined writing fetishy smut to share with others would have led me to where it has now. I’ve met some truly awesome people (and part-people!), greatly refined my writing ability and gotten a truly heartwarming glow from making stories people enjoy. Now, It’s led me to connect with a very special someone :D. This might not come to much of a surprise to some of you, but
Sovandar and I are going to be meeting up IRL soonish. I don’t know where our futures may lie, but just having the friendship of someone so thoughtful, sweet, intelligent and sexy has been a blessing beyond mere words. Thanks to his support, I finally managed to come out to my parents… and aside from a bit of awkwardness it really went well :).
I don’t know what everyone’s own situation is and I wouldn’t presume to offer unsolicited advice or make hasty judgements, but there really is something to being honest with yourself, your friends and your family about who you are. Anyway, what I’m getting at is… it’s not easy to trust people. It’s not easy to admit that your interests or orientation or philosophy or whatever deviates from the norm, that you are somehow *different* from what you thought you were or what others expect of you. But in my experience, there really isn’t any way to be happy without coming to terms with who you are, making peace with what you want from life and then turning your attention to things you *can* change- like your physical fitness, your academic career or your love life. My experience is that being open, honest and true to yourself and others is a precondition to happiness.
Anyway, I’m going to have to take a sec to offer special shout-outs to all of my good friends (well, those who don’t mind the attention at least. Lurker-friends, you’re just as important and you know who you are!)
Amethystine, for his continued friendship, selfless editing assistance and his sexy, ‘corrupting’ influence on me ^_^.
Anawyn, for giving me sweet a taste of the avian experience, sharing ideas, and his much-appreciated personal advice.
Blackscale, for our many shared times together, good, bad and in between... and a lot of sexy RP’s .
Paint, for helping turn a lot of my incoherent art ideas into awesome reality as well as being a sympathetic set of earholes when needed .
Zantal, the coolest croc to hang with there is, and a writer after my own heart!
Photon, quite possibly the most ingenious TF-fan I know of, as well as a real stand-up, insightful guy.
SSJ3Mewtwo, a solid friend and an all-around awesome guy.
And, of course,
Sovandar, for far too many things to mention in a mere sentence. Everything I’ve wanted to say to you I’ve already put to words; everything else won’t have to wait too much longer :).
Anyway! Onto the pornstuff!
There are three new things in my gallery, all of them written works of one stripe or another. One is a very short story with pure, sweet love as the theme (:>), the other is a TF-RP-story-collab with a silent partner-friend of mine and the third is a snippet of RP between Sovandar and I paired with the picture
Paint did for us to capture it :D. I hope you all enjoy these!
WIP-wise, I have my avian hypnosis TF story about halfway done, along with the first of my end-of-summer commissions (specifically, the one for mewthree). I have a few other things in the works- my own work, commissions and collaborations- but they are either somewhat-secret, a ways off or still in the planning stages. Rest assured that while I may be a bit late responding to comments and such, I *very* much appreciate them and I will keep working as much as I can given the demands of life.
So to sum it all up: what a long, strange trip it’s been, being a hawklizard TF writer. I wouldn’t give it up for the world :D.
PS- One last shout-out goes to Ame’s friend and awesome TF artist
DMA, who I promised to plug a while back. Although I don’t know if they’re still soliciting commissions, your time will be well spent on their page!
I hardly know where to begin; the last few months have been some of the busiest but most productive and happy of my life. Graduate classes and work have me working 10+ hours most days- I’ve had to cut back a lot on my extracurricular activities- but I’m still holding my ground! (crosses fingers)
I don’t usually like to talk too much about my personal life in a public forum, but just this once I feel it’s necessary. It’s been a little over two years since I came out to my friends; a year and change since I started writing and posting stories. Even though furry smut really helped me come to terms with my sexuality, I would never have imagined writing fetishy smut to share with others would have led me to where it has now. I’ve met some truly awesome people (and part-people!), greatly refined my writing ability and gotten a truly heartwarming glow from making stories people enjoy. Now, It’s led me to connect with a very special someone :D. This might not come to much of a surprise to some of you, but
Sovandar and I are going to be meeting up IRL soonish. I don’t know where our futures may lie, but just having the friendship of someone so thoughtful, sweet, intelligent and sexy has been a blessing beyond mere words. Thanks to his support, I finally managed to come out to my parents… and aside from a bit of awkwardness it really went well :).I don’t know what everyone’s own situation is and I wouldn’t presume to offer unsolicited advice or make hasty judgements, but there really is something to being honest with yourself, your friends and your family about who you are. Anyway, what I’m getting at is… it’s not easy to trust people. It’s not easy to admit that your interests or orientation or philosophy or whatever deviates from the norm, that you are somehow *different* from what you thought you were or what others expect of you. But in my experience, there really isn’t any way to be happy without coming to terms with who you are, making peace with what you want from life and then turning your attention to things you *can* change- like your physical fitness, your academic career or your love life. My experience is that being open, honest and true to yourself and others is a precondition to happiness.
Anyway, I’m going to have to take a sec to offer special shout-outs to all of my good friends (well, those who don’t mind the attention at least. Lurker-friends, you’re just as important and you know who you are!)
Amethystine, for his continued friendship, selfless editing assistance and his sexy, ‘corrupting’ influence on me ^_^.
Anawyn, for giving me sweet a taste of the avian experience, sharing ideas, and his much-appreciated personal advice.
Blackscale, for our many shared times together, good, bad and in between... and a lot of sexy RP’s .
Paint, for helping turn a lot of my incoherent art ideas into awesome reality as well as being a sympathetic set of earholes when needed .
Zantal, the coolest croc to hang with there is, and a writer after my own heart!
Photon, quite possibly the most ingenious TF-fan I know of, as well as a real stand-up, insightful guy.
SSJ3Mewtwo, a solid friend and an all-around awesome guy.And, of course,
Sovandar, for far too many things to mention in a mere sentence. Everything I’ve wanted to say to you I’ve already put to words; everything else won’t have to wait too much longer :). Anyway! Onto the pornstuff!
There are three new things in my gallery, all of them written works of one stripe or another. One is a very short story with pure, sweet love as the theme (:>), the other is a TF-RP-story-collab with a silent partner-friend of mine and the third is a snippet of RP between Sovandar and I paired with the picture
Paint did for us to capture it :D. I hope you all enjoy these!WIP-wise, I have my avian hypnosis TF story about halfway done, along with the first of my end-of-summer commissions (specifically, the one for mewthree). I have a few other things in the works- my own work, commissions and collaborations- but they are either somewhat-secret, a ways off or still in the planning stages. Rest assured that while I may be a bit late responding to comments and such, I *very* much appreciate them and I will keep working as much as I can given the demands of life.
So to sum it all up: what a long, strange trip it’s been, being a hawklizard TF writer. I wouldn’t give it up for the world :D.
PS- One last shout-out goes to Ame’s friend and awesome TF artist
DMA, who I promised to plug a while back. Although I don’t know if they’re still soliciting commissions, your time will be well spent on their page!
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See? http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1862485/
Thanks for the props and stuff, and I already pretty much knew the rest/talked to you about it in IMs. Overall, though: good show! :}===<
Glad to hear your trip has been eventful and meaningful thus far. :>