Okay, well I thought I'd just start this off with the usual, I know my journal is usually only updated when something is quite depressing, and that I have very few people that bother reading this.

So... Regardless of that fact, I just need to get it out, just say it. Because I'll be damned if I just bottle it up like I always do.

I'll start with the scenario I guess, I went to Midwest FurFest this year, now overall I had a great time, in fact, I can't wait to do it again next year, however as I sat down in Con Suite each time I was hungry, I couldn't help but look around and realize how lonely I was, I saw guys and girls cuddling their boyfriend or girlfriend publicly, just a hug or an arm around their far shoulder, and it made me realize I've never been in a situation where I could even be comfortable doing that. It's a revelation amongst many I suffered at the con.

And several more times during the con I sat there wondering to myself; I had many opportunities where I could run off and have a quick fling with someone to get my jollies off, something that I have proudly only done at one of my 3 cons now... But the thought was just so empty. So yeah, I just sat there in the hotel on many occasions that I knew more of these people and that somewhere in there I had someone I could get close to.

My Saturday sucked some serious balls, I had a good time that day up until I left Kraven Lupei's room at... Well fuck I dunno when, but after that everything just started to suck hard. I guess I won't go in to detail, oh and I wanna send out a giant FUCK YOU to whomever decided to wheel that round bench in to the elevator from the seventh floor; yeah I ended up putting that back so the con didn't get fined or some stupid shit for the ridiculous risk of stupidity, I actually ended up putting that thing back with Blazger and Frostcat, we went from floor to floor to make sure it was returned without an incident.

Of course I'm being so negative right now though, in reality MFF was great, some new friends here and there, though hardly as many as I would've liked, I spent most of my time with people I already know, oh and I get the con free next year because I volunteered. So yeah, it was fun when it was going good, but there was a lot of drama that hit me that kept it from being more than just a 'good con'. Though I am also suffering a bit of Post-con depression so clearly it wasn't as bad as it could've been...

And there's always next year.