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Laugh at Life
15 years ago
Giggle Giggle I believe this is going to be my new motto.
A couple of months ago, I was driving to school, and I almost got side swiped by a van who was breaking traffic laws. My mother yelled at me, and I realized, I didn't care if there was an accident or not. I didn't care if I lived or died.
This was unnerving to me, because I've always forced myself to do well in things, such as school. Basically my life at the moment is controlled by, "It'll help for college". I've always thought I need to succeed, but to what end? To make my time here on earth, living, happy? Then I pondered, if I'm going to die at some point anyway, what's the point in trying? What's the point in going through all of this, to reach death?
I don't really believe in hell, though I do believe in God and Heaven. I believe if you're a dick or an awful person in real life, you'll just kinda disappear. This is just kinda extra.
So in my pondering, I've thought, ok, If i won't kill myself, then why not have fun and destroy everything I've ever stood for? Why not go out and sex it up and drugs and alcohol and be a general delinquint? Might as well have a bit of fun, right? But, I'm a coward, and could never do that. Plus, is it really fear, or just a non interest in doing it? Would it just be rebellion against life? I've realized a fear of utter failure, I don't want to live in a ditch or anything, but at the same time I'm gripped by the utter futileness in life.
So, what's left? I can either decide, I'm gonna die anyway, lets just kinda let it go. Then I realized, ya know, I want to be a vet. That's the career I'm going for. There has to be something else in it then money, and it's the fact that I'm helping something that can't really help itself, and deserves the help. I feel an animal deserves more help than a homeless human being who more or less put themselves in that position. So, I want to be productive and help.
1) What if I don't get there? and 2) What do I do till then?
Laugh, live, and enjoy. Enjoy what you really enjoy. If that is sitting down and watching cartoons to rid yourself of these thoughts, than thats it. If it's helping animals, that's it. If it's playing music, that's it. Just be happy with what you have. Life if that wonderful puzzle you get when you're born. If you solve it, you get to die and go to your afterlife, whatever that may be. To me, that's Heaven and God. To you, it may be whatever. If you don't believe in an afterlife, you no longer have to deal with the people around you. You don't have to solve any more problems. To those that believe in an afterlife, you get to hang out in paradise, where you control everything. You can throw in an obstacle if you get bored. And that's what you get when you beat a puzzle. You can change it, cause you beat it.
Laugh at life, bevause eventually, you beat it.
That's my deepness for now.
A couple of months ago, I was driving to school, and I almost got side swiped by a van who was breaking traffic laws. My mother yelled at me, and I realized, I didn't care if there was an accident or not. I didn't care if I lived or died.
This was unnerving to me, because I've always forced myself to do well in things, such as school. Basically my life at the moment is controlled by, "It'll help for college". I've always thought I need to succeed, but to what end? To make my time here on earth, living, happy? Then I pondered, if I'm going to die at some point anyway, what's the point in trying? What's the point in going through all of this, to reach death?
I don't really believe in hell, though I do believe in God and Heaven. I believe if you're a dick or an awful person in real life, you'll just kinda disappear. This is just kinda extra.
So in my pondering, I've thought, ok, If i won't kill myself, then why not have fun and destroy everything I've ever stood for? Why not go out and sex it up and drugs and alcohol and be a general delinquint? Might as well have a bit of fun, right? But, I'm a coward, and could never do that. Plus, is it really fear, or just a non interest in doing it? Would it just be rebellion against life? I've realized a fear of utter failure, I don't want to live in a ditch or anything, but at the same time I'm gripped by the utter futileness in life.
So, what's left? I can either decide, I'm gonna die anyway, lets just kinda let it go. Then I realized, ya know, I want to be a vet. That's the career I'm going for. There has to be something else in it then money, and it's the fact that I'm helping something that can't really help itself, and deserves the help. I feel an animal deserves more help than a homeless human being who more or less put themselves in that position. So, I want to be productive and help.
1) What if I don't get there? and 2) What do I do till then?
Laugh, live, and enjoy. Enjoy what you really enjoy. If that is sitting down and watching cartoons to rid yourself of these thoughts, than thats it. If it's helping animals, that's it. If it's playing music, that's it. Just be happy with what you have. Life if that wonderful puzzle you get when you're born. If you solve it, you get to die and go to your afterlife, whatever that may be. To me, that's Heaven and God. To you, it may be whatever. If you don't believe in an afterlife, you no longer have to deal with the people around you. You don't have to solve any more problems. To those that believe in an afterlife, you get to hang out in paradise, where you control everything. You can throw in an obstacle if you get bored. And that's what you get when you beat a puzzle. You can change it, cause you beat it.
Laugh at life, bevause eventually, you beat it.
That's my deepness for now.
I feel the same way about homeless people. I rather give a stray animal food than give a homeless guy a dollar because most of them are there because they put themselves there.
God is all good He is a righteous judge who most punish sin. But all of us have sinned and done things that we are not proud of. We’re all guilty of sin. We are like a guilty man in front of a righteous judge. We can’t do anything about that. Even if we maybe sorry we are sill held accountable for our sins.
To God sin is so serious that it’s punishuble by death for wages of sin is death. But we can never truly die because we all have a spirit that can’t truly die so the ponishment must be eternal. That place is called Hell. Now God Doesn’t Want Any One To Perish. Soo He did something so we can be forgiven. You see the good news is this that though we can’t do anything ourselves He sent himself though His Son, Jesus. Who willingly gave his life and took the punishment and pain of all our sins so that we can be forgiven and clean. He died and rose again three days. So if we believe, excepting him as Lord and ask him to forgive use for our sins we will be forgiven, it doesn’t matter what we’ve done we can be forgiven because of what Jesus did on the cross. Death has no hold over use. We can’t just deny that hell doesn’t exist.
The fact that Hell exists just proves God’s love for us even more. The Bible makes it very clear that Hell does exist.