Well things went to a low for me yesterday. And now I need to write it so to better look at. Here is what happened to send me low. My school does a musical and it was Seven brides for Seven Brothers. That is one of my favorite musicals, and I wanted to be the lead, Adam. Now I had told my mother and she had gotten my hopes up very high when I told her not. So here is were it went down. Cast list goes up and I look on the list and I see my name near the top and then I see what is next to it... Ben. My heart just sinks. I leave quickly with my girlfriend at heals. She does not really understand why I am far away. We go sit down with a few friend who got in the show. I put on my mask and I talk to them. I now really feel bad, stupid, and shellfish, because they got little to nothing parts and I am down because I got a little bigger brother part. Man I feel terrible. So go thruogh the day with the mask on and to firsrt read through. I feel better by then, but I do still have that little bit. So get home and my mother is in a tieradid over casting and just can't deal with this so I tell to stop and she doesn't. So just go to my room for a little while and come up for dinner. Where she is in her room. I eat feel better hanging with my family then soon I to sulic in my room. Later that night I had to go to my grandmother's do to she is leave to go get surgery and go to Florida. I almost did not go. Now I feel bad that I almost didn't. Man Life and time likes to just kick you when you are down. So when I get back sulic in my room and sleep. I did not get a good night sleep. Also I have belly problems now. So that leds me to writing this. I feel better and woures at writing this. Now I am going to try and get through school and practice. Boy,oh boy. Here now I am going to list some goals I may try to get my mind to positive energy and better health.

- get my grade up. There not bad nor are they great.
- Through myself in to Solo/ensemble.
- Loss some weight.
- better hygiene

Thank you to all that read.

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