I know, i'm a bit late in getting this out. This is why i haven't been on all that much. My inbox is so, so full of lovely submissions. I just dont have the time, nor mood to look at them all. (I will get to them!) And i have to thank all my friends here for giving me so much support.. it has helped so, so much.

I had to fly to Wa. from Texas to be with dad in this time. Funeral is on Wens. and *gives a little smile* i am actually meeting Ink at the end of the week! It will be something fun i can look forward to, rather then this gloomy atmosphere i'm in right now.

My mother and i were really, really close when i was younger. She wouldn't let me out of her sight, and i really couldn't do anything unless she was there with me. I think there is such a thing as loving someone too much, but regardless she just wanted what was best for me. I still love her so much.. and i miss her. I want to talk with her, i want to hear her voice. She was in such pain, wherever she is.. she is at peace now. No more pain. She died calmly in her sleep last Friday. You will be missed mom.