=W= oh serch that on youtube. but anywho yeah my net is going bugy. my, hubby offered to buy my a router since my main computer has internet all the time from optimun. i really hate getting offers , it makes me feel weak and im a person that acts tough and can back it up. but i dont have any other option so... i gotta accept it. i love him so much , hes sweet. hehe. makes me happy but i dont like being a burden like in second life knowing he has money and there are outfits i want. i have no cash ever in sl so i never ask him , it makes me feel stupid to ask him for that. i live off freebies and hunts there. hehe im a little ragged dressed kitty for him.

i did get a commission for him and me of our characters. nekcommissions i got it from. oh it came out wonderful and so pretty. all he could tell me was "<3" not a complicated papragraph. just a heart. made me feel so warm... that i gave something back to him after he bought my lappy 2.0 . at home in real its so damn cold at night, i kinda snuggle my pillow wishing it was him. gah im acting all girly over this.

right now my other lover who i really think arent going well. feels like were just friends now is in a pinch. i dont want to talk about that. but i still like him alot, just that its falling apart and he needs more time to himself so it might be good.

today at school i found a manga on the floor "vampire knight" grabed it, stuffed it in my bag and left the class room feeling like i stole something, bah i wanted something anyways.

and mabye at the end of this year, or next year i get to move in with my man. finally that fucking sleeping alone will go away and my damn retard of a big sister will leave my life for a bit.

so here i sgin off for this week.

Rayle X kadah X Zxyxx

ove you all and my watchers. im not drawing alot but i plan to get back to it when my life is somewhat together.


oh and a shout out to my son Holysong

mommy loves you baby, and will never give you up. buh byes for now and see you at home y'all