Whereupon I make clear my feelings on cowardice (RANT AHEAD)
15 years ago
General
So, recently, I had some of my stuff commented on and faved. Which is weird, since I'd been completely inactive for something on the order of four months at the time, and hadn't posted anything in over two years. So, I don' have a clue how they came by my stuff, but that's not the point.
The point is that we chatted a little on FA and I wound up offering them my xFire so we could, y'know, have an actual conversation. Short time into the convo, they mention that my pattern of speech (such as it is in IM) was similar to that of someone they didn't like. And the story pretty much ends there, because the decision was more or less arbitrarily made, without giving me, personally, a chance, that I was a horrible person.
So, I'm making a note here that, by the Black God, if you're a damned coward, you're welcome to refuse my offer of conversation. See, as those who know me may be aware, I despise males. On the other hand, when I meet a male, I give them an opportunity to earn that hatred. I don't arbitrarily assume that, since they have a penis, they're a bad person. I simply don't give second chances. And, as far as I'm concerned, that's legitimate. The other method of doing things, the one that would result in me calling myself a coward (which is something I try to avoid ever having to do; my self-esteem is fucked up enough as-is), is assuming that all males are bad, simply because the majority of the males I've ever trusted have broken trust with me.
Oh, and for the record, I'm not a bad person. I'm generally reasonably polite (if occasionally a little bawdy), I'm friendly, and I'm generally a fairly good listener who doesn't take rants personally. I admit, of course, that I occasionally term myself evil, but, much like there are good and bad forms of insanity, so too are there, to my way of thinking, good and bad forms of evil. And my form of evil tends to make unwary males wince and the vast majority of my female friends (and my few male friends) giggle and snort soda (I've been told that causing soda-snorting is what makes it evil).
Also, it feels -really- good to get this off my chest. Back to Deus Ex, now.
PS, if you insult me like this and you're on my watch list (either here or on dA)....expect to be removed. I don't need reminders of things that piss me off.
The point is that we chatted a little on FA and I wound up offering them my xFire so we could, y'know, have an actual conversation. Short time into the convo, they mention that my pattern of speech (such as it is in IM) was similar to that of someone they didn't like. And the story pretty much ends there, because the decision was more or less arbitrarily made, without giving me, personally, a chance, that I was a horrible person.
So, I'm making a note here that, by the Black God, if you're a damned coward, you're welcome to refuse my offer of conversation. See, as those who know me may be aware, I despise males. On the other hand, when I meet a male, I give them an opportunity to earn that hatred. I don't arbitrarily assume that, since they have a penis, they're a bad person. I simply don't give second chances. And, as far as I'm concerned, that's legitimate. The other method of doing things, the one that would result in me calling myself a coward (which is something I try to avoid ever having to do; my self-esteem is fucked up enough as-is), is assuming that all males are bad, simply because the majority of the males I've ever trusted have broken trust with me.
Oh, and for the record, I'm not a bad person. I'm generally reasonably polite (if occasionally a little bawdy), I'm friendly, and I'm generally a fairly good listener who doesn't take rants personally. I admit, of course, that I occasionally term myself evil, but, much like there are good and bad forms of insanity, so too are there, to my way of thinking, good and bad forms of evil. And my form of evil tends to make unwary males wince and the vast majority of my female friends (and my few male friends) giggle and snort soda (I've been told that causing soda-snorting is what makes it evil).
Also, it feels -really- good to get this off my chest. Back to Deus Ex, now.
PS, if you insult me like this and you're on my watch list (either here or on dA)....expect to be removed. I don't need reminders of things that piss me off.
VGM22
∞vgm22
I've had that happen to me before. I just went on my way when the person just stopped talking to me, due to them not liking how I IMed.
haelkentrellek
~haelkentrellek
OP
*shakes his head* They blocked me after I said 'good morning' to them. No response, no 'please don't talk to me further'. By the Divines, I'd not be nearly so irritated by the whole thing had they displayed the slightest bit of politeness in dealing with it. And I, of course, do mean fairly direct politeness, as subtlety doesn't work online. *sighs* But whatever. It was a damned fine reminder that the social interaction that I need to stay reasonably sane is going to wind up driving me insane.
VGM22
∞vgm22
Oh, I see. Thought maybe it was they talked to ya for a bit and decided that. Though that's fucked up that just by saying "good morning" they decided that they didn't like you.
haelkentrellek
~haelkentrellek
OP
Don' get me wrong, we did talk....but not nearly enough for them to get the sense that I'm bad. I dunno...mebbe I'm over sensitive about such things, but I really hate being disliked for crimes I've never committed.
VGM22
∞vgm22
Yeah. Anyone hates being in that situation. Being charged with a crime they didn't commit.
haelkentrellek
~haelkentrellek
OP
On a completely unrelated note, how've you been?
VGM22
∞vgm22
Not very good at all.
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