So today I have felt very betrayed by someone I had assumed had been distancing themselves from me due to a more recentish personal problem, however they had apparently never been close to me at all and all of their pretty words of trust and affection had been just that words.

Now I write this knowing fully well this person will likely read it but considering how currently void of any sense of emotion they are its likely they won't take offense.

Don't get me wrong on this I am not trying to bash this person or bring any form of persecution to their doorstep but the fact of the matter remains I am very hurt currently.

I know this person deep down inside still has a piece of themselves that still cares about the outside world and the people in their life so I have not given up hope on them.

Things finally came to a head tonight. I flat out asked them if they cared for me at all and their response was "is this a time to be honest or considerate." (I'm paraphrasing of course) I was shocked, I had appealed to this persons last shed of humanity and decency and they unfortunately callously turned me away.

I will not reveal who this person is to the general people reading this journal because honestly even if they were being malicious and not just being cold and indifferent I would still wish them no ill will.

Keep in mind that if you are reading this and you have to possibly ask yourself what did I do, then it was not you.

I have never reached a point in a relationship with another human being in which I felt as if I was running out of compassion and love for that fellow human being but this has pushed me to my absolute edge and I don't know if there is anymore left.

For all of my friends who are able to love and trust another human being wholeheartedly despite the damages that may have befallen you or the unhealed scars and lacerations within your emotional self I love you.