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My experience with god
18 years ago
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Well, i had this very visionary dream a few weeks ago and after pondering at for a while and now seeing the new journal from 
MStuarn i thought i might get some second opinions from you.
Know that i wouldn´t consider myself atheist (although i would probably tell you that when you ask me on the stree), but i don´t believe in any of the official religions. neither do i judge them right or wrong, if they keep me alone i will not mess with them either.
All in all i am a very scientific person, believing in reason and facts, but aknowledging that with out simple minds and technology there are so many things we can´t see or even think of.
Well i wont keep you up any longer, so read the dream if you want :)
>>>The dream began quite suddenly and i can´t really remember how i got there. I found myself sitting on the edge of a marble fountain, which was spitting clear water high in the air, which then cascaded down into the pool by my side.
I was wearing a long, white robe, very much like a toga, but much lighter.
Although i could not see any walls i had the feeling that i was in some room. the view into the distance was obstructed by some fog or clouds. The same, a thick cloudy fog was also creeping along the "floor" and enveloping my legs.
Above me was an unseen lightsource that gave the 'room' a kinda sunny feeling, without being blinding. Also from an unseen ceiling there were huge slowly swinging gaze-like curtains.
The room was all arranged towards the fountain and my point of view, the rest relatively barren.
It was a very relaxing and calming athmosphere.
Afterwards i have the impression that it seemed very carefully arranged, like a theater stage
I was still looking around, having the feeling that i was waiting for something, when i felt a presence behind me and i could also see from the edge of my eyes a new clear light behind me.
Please bear with me, because the following might seem to you very cliche or unreal, but thats exactly what happened
I turned around and there before me also on the edge of the fountain was sitting GOD or an Angel, i really can´t tell.
A humanlike figure, really large (from my own size i would say at least 2,5m), a little muscled, not skinny and very well proportioned.
It had had a very light, but in no way pale skin (i think the lighting really benefited its looks.)
Completly naked it sat there before me, but there were no signs of a sex visible (i have to admit that i looked tounge1)
From its back extended 4 large wings, two to each side, at least spanning 2 meters to each side.
Large white feathers shining on the inside, the very outer tips of the wings were in a warm brown color. (all in all they looked very much like huge bird wings).
Later i saw the outside and it was brown like the tips aswell (only the inside of the wings was white.
now it was extending its wings, seemingly as far as it could creating sorta a bright halo around it, reflecting the ambient light onto me.
But the for me most fascinating thing was that it had no head or neck.
Out of the top of its rump sprung 9 approximately wrist thick crystal like tentacles, at least 1,5 meters long.
They were moving, or better flowing like they were of water, but seemed very solid (i want to say VERY flexible).
From the inside of its chest a warm bright light was emenating, leaving its body through this neck-opening but being caught and transmitted along the tentacles (like glass-fibers if you will it)
It swung these tentacles around, letting them face me.
(It moved them in accord and kept a distance between so that some sort of grid formed.)
Looking directly at me i could see that the tentacles were octagon cylinders (which gave me reason to describe them as crystal-like) with this grid between them, all being illuminated by the light from inside its body.
Then it 'spoke' or better i heard a voice inside my head, more like a thought being expressed in all languages at once. So if i say said henceforth its this form of expression, i simply don´t have a better word.
"Good that you have come, i have to speak to you"
I was shivering, or at least i felt like this.
I wanted to fall down on my knees and beg it for forgiveness for everything i had done wrong.
I am very atheist and don´t believe in any gods, but the sheer presence of this 'being' made all my beliefs wither away and replaced them by simply unquestioning faith
I had the impression that i was wrong there and i had taken someone elses place, i sure was not worthy to stand in its presence.
"As you know, we are both not getting any younger"
it said, perplexing me quite a bit.
I noticed that i had been staring at it all the time, and i could see my own face reflecting in the tip of each of the tentacles.
It looked like stone, and also a bit frigthend (but luckily not to the extend that i was feeling inside)
The being must´ve noticed something, too, because now it went silent and moved its tentacles closer, until they were only a mere foot away from my face (while it was sitting quite abit away from me (as said i tried to move, but i simply couldn´t. maybe otherwise i would´ve sprung up and run away, or touched ti to see if its real.
It sorta looked me "in the eye" for a few seconds, then retracting the tentacles, until they were above its body again, at incredible speed.
Somehow it seemed disappointed.
"I sense you still can´t see me"
It said in some sorta sad voice.
It then crossed its arms with fingers spread over its chest and enveloped itself in its wings (thats when i saw that the outside was brown) and slowly walked backwards into the mists.
I tried to stand up and follow it but i still couldn´t move.
Next thing i remember is that i lie in my bed with the most huge and wicked smile on my face i can imagine, my body burning with an inner fire, totally relaxed and happy.
i had been touched by god/and angel was all i could think over and over again.
You could say it was a religious revelation, although i still don´t believe in such things. And i truly didn´t have the impression that it was thinking bad of me because i didn´t worship any sort of god.
I had more the impression that its thoughts and ideas were so far out of our sphere of imagination that my beliefs simply didn´t mattered for it.
<<<
Its quite longish i know, but hopefully you all made it through alive ^^;
So, what do you think, should i build a church or something :P
MStuarn i thought i might get some second opinions from you.Know that i wouldn´t consider myself atheist (although i would probably tell you that when you ask me on the stree), but i don´t believe in any of the official religions. neither do i judge them right or wrong, if they keep me alone i will not mess with them either.
All in all i am a very scientific person, believing in reason and facts, but aknowledging that with out simple minds and technology there are so many things we can´t see or even think of.
Well i wont keep you up any longer, so read the dream if you want :)
>>>The dream began quite suddenly and i can´t really remember how i got there. I found myself sitting on the edge of a marble fountain, which was spitting clear water high in the air, which then cascaded down into the pool by my side.
I was wearing a long, white robe, very much like a toga, but much lighter.
Although i could not see any walls i had the feeling that i was in some room. the view into the distance was obstructed by some fog or clouds. The same, a thick cloudy fog was also creeping along the "floor" and enveloping my legs.
Above me was an unseen lightsource that gave the 'room' a kinda sunny feeling, without being blinding. Also from an unseen ceiling there were huge slowly swinging gaze-like curtains.
The room was all arranged towards the fountain and my point of view, the rest relatively barren.
It was a very relaxing and calming athmosphere.
Afterwards i have the impression that it seemed very carefully arranged, like a theater stage
I was still looking around, having the feeling that i was waiting for something, when i felt a presence behind me and i could also see from the edge of my eyes a new clear light behind me.
Please bear with me, because the following might seem to you very cliche or unreal, but thats exactly what happened
I turned around and there before me also on the edge of the fountain was sitting GOD or an Angel, i really can´t tell.
A humanlike figure, really large (from my own size i would say at least 2,5m), a little muscled, not skinny and very well proportioned.
It had had a very light, but in no way pale skin (i think the lighting really benefited its looks.)
Completly naked it sat there before me, but there were no signs of a sex visible (i have to admit that i looked tounge1)
From its back extended 4 large wings, two to each side, at least spanning 2 meters to each side.
Large white feathers shining on the inside, the very outer tips of the wings were in a warm brown color. (all in all they looked very much like huge bird wings).
Later i saw the outside and it was brown like the tips aswell (only the inside of the wings was white.
now it was extending its wings, seemingly as far as it could creating sorta a bright halo around it, reflecting the ambient light onto me.
But the for me most fascinating thing was that it had no head or neck.
Out of the top of its rump sprung 9 approximately wrist thick crystal like tentacles, at least 1,5 meters long.
They were moving, or better flowing like they were of water, but seemed very solid (i want to say VERY flexible).
From the inside of its chest a warm bright light was emenating, leaving its body through this neck-opening but being caught and transmitted along the tentacles (like glass-fibers if you will it)
It swung these tentacles around, letting them face me.
(It moved them in accord and kept a distance between so that some sort of grid formed.)
Looking directly at me i could see that the tentacles were octagon cylinders (which gave me reason to describe them as crystal-like) with this grid between them, all being illuminated by the light from inside its body.
Then it 'spoke' or better i heard a voice inside my head, more like a thought being expressed in all languages at once. So if i say said henceforth its this form of expression, i simply don´t have a better word.
"Good that you have come, i have to speak to you"
I was shivering, or at least i felt like this.
I wanted to fall down on my knees and beg it for forgiveness for everything i had done wrong.
I am very atheist and don´t believe in any gods, but the sheer presence of this 'being' made all my beliefs wither away and replaced them by simply unquestioning faith
I had the impression that i was wrong there and i had taken someone elses place, i sure was not worthy to stand in its presence.
"As you know, we are both not getting any younger"
it said, perplexing me quite a bit.
I noticed that i had been staring at it all the time, and i could see my own face reflecting in the tip of each of the tentacles.
It looked like stone, and also a bit frigthend (but luckily not to the extend that i was feeling inside)
The being must´ve noticed something, too, because now it went silent and moved its tentacles closer, until they were only a mere foot away from my face (while it was sitting quite abit away from me (as said i tried to move, but i simply couldn´t. maybe otherwise i would´ve sprung up and run away, or touched ti to see if its real.
It sorta looked me "in the eye" for a few seconds, then retracting the tentacles, until they were above its body again, at incredible speed.
Somehow it seemed disappointed.
"I sense you still can´t see me"
It said in some sorta sad voice.
It then crossed its arms with fingers spread over its chest and enveloped itself in its wings (thats when i saw that the outside was brown) and slowly walked backwards into the mists.
I tried to stand up and follow it but i still couldn´t move.
Next thing i remember is that i lie in my bed with the most huge and wicked smile on my face i can imagine, my body burning with an inner fire, totally relaxed and happy.
i had been touched by god/and angel was all i could think over and over again.
You could say it was a religious revelation, although i still don´t believe in such things. And i truly didn´t have the impression that it was thinking bad of me because i didn´t worship any sort of god.
I had more the impression that its thoughts and ideas were so far out of our sphere of imagination that my beliefs simply didn´t mattered for it.
<<<
Its quite longish i know, but hopefully you all made it through alive ^^;
So, what do you think, should i build a church or something :P
TerraMarine
~terramarine
well, i dont really think it was a religious experience, but im not really a religious type either, still, it looks like it was very detailed for just a one-off, so maybe something happended to you to trigger it? who knows, hell if i will ever have something like that, my brains so messed up nothing comes out that looks remotely real, apart from a sister i never had....
