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New Year's Meme
15 years ago
I laugh at you before you can laugh at me...
I was reminded by Rhaen that 2011 is this Saturday. So, I decided I needed to analyze my year and figure out what I actually managed to accomplish. 2010 (and I guess 2009), at this moment, were failed years, from my point of view. Maybe this'll help me notice things that worked.
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
I wrote, produced, starred in, and directed a show. I also stage managed another show. And Assistant Stage Managed another show. And was in the cast of the preview version of another new musical. I also applied for universities, and failed to get into them. Oh, and I got hit on.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions, really. I'm far too passive and lenient with myself to hold to any of them anyway.
3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
It looks like in my room. Doing nothing. All my friends are off doing their own things this year.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Actually, no. That's not something that happens a lot to me.
5. What countries did you visit?
I stayed in Canada this year, unfortunately. This year and last year, I was unable to do my annual trip to New York.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Acceptance to the schools I audition for, a paying job within the field that I'm actually studying for, and some other stuff.
7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 20th, my audition at Sheridan. I spent an hour sitting alone on a bench in the rain, waiting for my ride back to Toronto after being told on the spot that I would not be admitted to the school.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating high school. I don't consider it an achievement more than an expectation. I know that makes me sound pretentious since there are lots of people who don't manage to do that, but, to be frank, I'm not sure how it comes to that.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Spending over a year preparing for my Sheridan audition, only to be rejected on the spot.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really, just the odd migraine here and there. Swine Flu was last year.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My phone plan, it's better than yours.
12. Where did most of your money go?
Food, most likely. I don't like spending money, haha.
13. What song will always remind you of 2010?
I Remember, from Evening Primrose. I sang it in the show I wrote. That, or Being Alive.
14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
My physiotherapy.
15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Having anxiety attacks, haha.
16. What was your favorite TV program?
30 Rock. Definitely 30 Rock.
17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Unfortunately. Some of them, though, in their defense, I didn't know until this year, and just hated them upon meeting them.
18. What was the best book you read?
The Empty Space, by Peter Brook. One of my theatre textbooks.
19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Sunday In the Park With George.
20. What was your favorite film of this year?
Scott Pilgrim. Definitely Scott Pilgrim.
21. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 18. I went to the flagrising gala for the Pride Festival, and then to my hags' house, where they had spent the whole afternoon making Indian food for me.
22. What kept you sane?
Sondheim, of course. However, more importantly,
RPDOfficer and 
Rhaen more than anything.
23. Who did you miss?
It's more of a "what" than a "who" to be honest.
24. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010:
Admitting to yourself and someone else that you've been contemplating suicide for a few months takes the stress of that off your shoulders, and thus the contemplation subsides.
Well, I guess I had succeeded with a lot of things when it comes to theatre and broadening my understanding of it. I did not accomplish what I had wanted to in most areas of the year, but, y'know what? That's done with. 2011 is starting, and I'm auditioning at three more schools, one of them the same as last year's. If I don't get accepted to any, then, well, who knows what's in store?
I've always been awful at thinking "Okay, where do I want to be in a year from now?" because it's not something I want to talk about. I like to deal with what's there in front of me, while at the same time keeping in mind that what I'm doing may hinder or benefit something in the future. I have ideas of where I'd like to be, and they may sound modest to some, but they're still something I believe to be unattainable.
I know this journal was full of super sad shit, but trust me, I'm not actually depressed right now or anything. It's just the facts of how the year went and, for the most part, I'm not very much affected by most of these any more.
SO HIGH FIVE.
o/
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
I wrote, produced, starred in, and directed a show. I also stage managed another show. And Assistant Stage Managed another show. And was in the cast of the preview version of another new musical. I also applied for universities, and failed to get into them. Oh, and I got hit on.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions, really. I'm far too passive and lenient with myself to hold to any of them anyway.
3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
It looks like in my room. Doing nothing. All my friends are off doing their own things this year.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Actually, no. That's not something that happens a lot to me.
5. What countries did you visit?
I stayed in Canada this year, unfortunately. This year and last year, I was unable to do my annual trip to New York.
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Acceptance to the schools I audition for, a paying job within the field that I'm actually studying for, and some other stuff.
7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 20th, my audition at Sheridan. I spent an hour sitting alone on a bench in the rain, waiting for my ride back to Toronto after being told on the spot that I would not be admitted to the school.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating high school. I don't consider it an achievement more than an expectation. I know that makes me sound pretentious since there are lots of people who don't manage to do that, but, to be frank, I'm not sure how it comes to that.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Spending over a year preparing for my Sheridan audition, only to be rejected on the spot.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really, just the odd migraine here and there. Swine Flu was last year.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My phone plan, it's better than yours.
12. Where did most of your money go?
Food, most likely. I don't like spending money, haha.
13. What song will always remind you of 2010?
I Remember, from Evening Primrose. I sang it in the show I wrote. That, or Being Alive.
14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
My physiotherapy.
15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Having anxiety attacks, haha.
16. What was your favorite TV program?
30 Rock. Definitely 30 Rock.
17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Unfortunately. Some of them, though, in their defense, I didn't know until this year, and just hated them upon meeting them.
18. What was the best book you read?
The Empty Space, by Peter Brook. One of my theatre textbooks.
19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Sunday In the Park With George.
20. What was your favorite film of this year?
Scott Pilgrim. Definitely Scott Pilgrim.
21. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 18. I went to the flagrising gala for the Pride Festival, and then to my hags' house, where they had spent the whole afternoon making Indian food for me.
22. What kept you sane?
Sondheim, of course. However, more importantly,
RPDOfficer and 
Rhaen more than anything.23. Who did you miss?
It's more of a "what" than a "who" to be honest.
24. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010:
Admitting to yourself and someone else that you've been contemplating suicide for a few months takes the stress of that off your shoulders, and thus the contemplation subsides.
Well, I guess I had succeeded with a lot of things when it comes to theatre and broadening my understanding of it. I did not accomplish what I had wanted to in most areas of the year, but, y'know what? That's done with. 2011 is starting, and I'm auditioning at three more schools, one of them the same as last year's. If I don't get accepted to any, then, well, who knows what's in store?
I've always been awful at thinking "Okay, where do I want to be in a year from now?" because it's not something I want to talk about. I like to deal with what's there in front of me, while at the same time keeping in mind that what I'm doing may hinder or benefit something in the future. I have ideas of where I'd like to be, and they may sound modest to some, but they're still something I believe to be unattainable.
I know this journal was full of super sad shit, but trust me, I'm not actually depressed right now or anything. It's just the facts of how the year went and, for the most part, I'm not very much affected by most of these any more.
SO HIGH FIVE.
o/
