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Kinda back... Also having weird dreams.
15 years ago
Heya!
Please let me know via note if you wanna chat in Skype, I don't normally keep it open. Hey...
I know nobody cares, but I guess I'm back. Forgive me for being away for so long. I'm a horrible person for doing that.
I've hit another bump, I'm feeling down lately, like it's not worth it to keep trying.
Not thinking of quitting, I'm no quitter. But at the same time, I wonder if it's worth it? Will I ever be good at drawing? Or will I continue to fail miserably at it?
I know you're all sick of me acting like this, and I'm sorry for that too. I said I'd stop, but I get so depressed sometimes.
Hopefully, it'll go away eventually, but in the meantime... Try to bear with me and my negativeness. And my crappy doodles.
On another note, I've been having strange dreams lately. Well, not lately, I've been having them all my life, but I've been dreaming the same thing much more frequently these last few weeks.
In my dreams, things are happening all around me, and I feel left behind, somehow. Suddenly, my teeth start falling off, one by one.
I try to hold on to them, try to keep my mouth closed shut, but I can feel them just coming unglued off my gums. I can almost feel the nerves tearing, I catch them and try to put them back in my mouth, but I can't. I keep dropping them, and I lose them eventually. And then I don't have any more teeth, and I feel embarrassed for some reason.
The first time I started having the dreams a couple years ago, I was bewildered and terrified, even after I woke up. But lately, I'm strangely getting used to them.
I'm my dream, I'm kind of accepting of my loss of teeth, and even go "there we go again" and move on to other dream stuff... It's weird.
I wonder what it all means. Those dreams, and my recent acceptance of them. I wonder why I keep dreaming the same thing frequently.
I know nobody cares, but I guess I'm back. Forgive me for being away for so long. I'm a horrible person for doing that.
I've hit another bump, I'm feeling down lately, like it's not worth it to keep trying.
Not thinking of quitting, I'm no quitter. But at the same time, I wonder if it's worth it? Will I ever be good at drawing? Or will I continue to fail miserably at it?
I know you're all sick of me acting like this, and I'm sorry for that too. I said I'd stop, but I get so depressed sometimes.
Hopefully, it'll go away eventually, but in the meantime... Try to bear with me and my negativeness. And my crappy doodles.
On another note, I've been having strange dreams lately. Well, not lately, I've been having them all my life, but I've been dreaming the same thing much more frequently these last few weeks.
In my dreams, things are happening all around me, and I feel left behind, somehow. Suddenly, my teeth start falling off, one by one.
I try to hold on to them, try to keep my mouth closed shut, but I can feel them just coming unglued off my gums. I can almost feel the nerves tearing, I catch them and try to put them back in my mouth, but I can't. I keep dropping them, and I lose them eventually. And then I don't have any more teeth, and I feel embarrassed for some reason.
The first time I started having the dreams a couple years ago, I was bewildered and terrified, even after I woke up. But lately, I'm strangely getting used to them.
I'm my dream, I'm kind of accepting of my loss of teeth, and even go "there we go again" and move on to other dream stuff... It's weird.
I wonder what it all means. Those dreams, and my recent acceptance of them. I wonder why I keep dreaming the same thing frequently.
Pretty weird dreams
Maybe your gonna lose something
I know, they're weird. But I've been having them for so long now that I don't think they're random, they've gotta mean something, you know?
That's okay, I don't know what they mean, either. But I'll figure it out.
Don't worry, I'll never stop drawing... But I get disheartened some times. I don't think I'm gearing up to anyone's expectations, like I'm letting everyone down. Like my best efforts are laughable at best.
honestly i think you draw quite well as it is, but if your willing to improve then try a few tutorials or ask artists for tips
I wish I knew exactly why I keep getting them, though. Stress could be a reason too.
I guess I could follow tutorials if I had to... But I'm too insecure to ask others for tips. I'm very jealous, and I would just end up being a douche. I think I'd rather just keep to myself...
Buddy, you are not the only one. Since last week I've been having a bunch of weird dreams...
But yeah, I care about you being around too. D: I believe in your ability and believe you will become a great artist. You're really good already!
And don't apologize for taking time away. If you need it, you need it, simple as that. :>
We'll still be here waiting for you.
I remember having them, but what happened slowly fades away. :<
Like that teeth thing, for example. It's so peculiar and shocking in my dreams that I end up remembering it so clearly. D:
And i still don't really think my art isreally worth much, but other people say otherwise... so you never know, Everyone has their own style, and it's always worth it to keep trying, however i feel that as long as you're having fun while drawing, it doesn't really matter the outcome. as long as you enjoy it!
*gives you another Hug*
Also, did you see the drawing I made for you? I sincerely hope you like it.
In any event you know my opinion on your art. You've got what it takes you just have to keep at it.
The dreams, well they're actually somewhat normal. I dream a lot about getting bitten or stung, or things falling off or worse yet growing on. 8( The fact of the matter is they stopped bothering me so much around your age. Our minds change over time... There are some dreams that bother me more than others. I hear a lot about dreams meaning this or that. Maybe to an extent, but I think it was Dickens that blamed them on, "an undigested bit of beef, a blot of mustard, a crumb of cheese, a fragment of an underdone potato." The fact of the matter is it's just your mind trying to figure something out or taking something out of context. When I dream about a bug biting me it may mean something... Most likely that my leg itches.
Perhaps your teeth are just shifting around, had your wisdom teeth out yet? I dreamed my teeth did all kinds of crazy stuff till I had my wisdom teeth out.
Some dreams are pretty powerful. I still have one that I had from the time I was little. I dream that I'm laying in bed in the dark, the bedroom door opens, I can't see who's there and for some reason that terrifies me. I've woken up many a night, afraid to even look at the bedroom door. After a little telly or a little surfing FA I'm fine though. You just have to find a way to chase that feeling off.