Im... finding it hard to keep up my happy face here. Fpr those of you who don't know... my grandad is currently in hospital with cancer. He is not going to recover...and in the next few days...i am going to lose him. Please...don't try to tell me to make the rest of his life better because he has no quality of life. He cannot hear...or see properly...and i've been told it enough. So... im afraid that i may not come here for a while....or if i do...i may be a lot sadder. Please understand that this is a difficult time for me... i have not had to cope with death before... this is my first experience of it. And it hurts. So i ask you all to be patient with me... understand if i don't respond to comments or notes or comment on your latest masterpieces. I hope you can...because in the next few days... this neko will cry.