I can't promise this is my final plan, but I'll stay with music. I've admitted to myself that I can't do music as a full time occupation. It's a lot easier to get into part time positions, and a bunch less stressful. My future probably has better promise this way. I won't make as much money, but i'd be doing something I love, without the constant stress of having a billion things to prepare. It either might be that I work two part time jobs (orchestra included), or I might be a part time "house wife" if I settle down with anyone.
So far things are starting to look up, maybe I might have some chance at getting my own damn room. My roommate is a twat... I can't put up with his "routine" much longer. I need beauty rest, the stress is showing up in my complexion, and I don't like looking like this. At least 6 hours of sleep a night would be fantastic, as opposed to 3-4 hours.
Anyway here's an old song that just finds its way to my "on repeat" list.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLEdiOWAgAY