God sometimes I hate insomnia. I slept for a couple of hours alibit fitfully and now I cant seem to go back to sleep. My head is pounding my stomach is turning and I feel like I want to cry. I dont know why this is, maybe its all the events of late just piling up and creating this big festering wound in my mind. Things I thought I was over now doesnt seem too much like I'm over them. Ugh I honestly dont know what to do, my heart feels brittle and cold and I seem to be placed in a bubble. I want to touch those outside of it but I cant seem to shatter the walls imprisioning me. Who knows what's going on. Spent so much time this morning jsut watching bits and peices of Wicked. I have to say I can reallly realate with Alphaba. I'm just kinda in a rut. I dont know why but Ill be out of it soon promise. I just need time for my heart to heal. Hopefully since this just peeled away the top layer though it hurts the worst it will heal faster. Ill keep the scar but I dont think it will be bad. Anyway Im going to try to sleep again. Im tired and I really do need to go to bed. Sorry if this really seems emo im not trying to be just trying to vent.