sorry everyone for bothering you with another post. but,is it just me? or isn't FA a great way to relief one's mind from stress and writing it onto a platform like online or on paper for others who may knows what you're dealing with,readsit and relate to it

anyways,just wanted to know how everyone been doing? since school started i will not be on much. and i'm working HARD to try to succeed and graduate from the college program that i'm currently in,i;ve always hated reading (which is why i've been either avoiding some of you guys' journals or half ass read them XD) but now,since i started reading to raise my score on my next pre-test and the full tests coming up...now,reading isn't so bad now

i kinda like reading now ^^ some of you guys on here post some LONG LONG LONG 12-chapter (at least,to me) like stories of journals here (you know who you are) i was like "OMG! DO I HAVE TO READ ALL THIS $#@!?" LOL but now,i'm very honored to read the full details complete in anyone's journals now. it doesn't kill my brain,anymore.

i've actually read an complete 8 part story here on FA and,i feel if i work hard enough,i will graduate and earn high scores on my next test. last time,my language test score was SO high i earned the school's program $4500 O.o wow,this makes everyone on campus love me even more XDD but,my reading test score (which is the score that would help graduate the most) was poor...but,my teacher said it was cause i didn't have enough time to complete all the whole thing AND some answers WERE the correct ones,but i changed them cause i thought they were wrong...that's what i get,for not using my animal senses about things,i screw myself up each time i don't.

(i've also been praticing reading more now,to increase my timing while reading and taking the tests...it's very limited :/)

i JUST HOPE that i will pass the test with flying colors and get a high score so that i can graduate up to the higher program...i really hope i do,so i don't have to come back to this program,again.

also,i need a job still,the economy in Jacksonville,Florida,USA is so bad...i swear,if i didn't want to lead a better life,i would totally convert back to selling drugs again,like i had in the past from ages 13-16

i noticed alot sometimes i can be an ass hole...eh,blame the way i grew up...when you're in a family of tough heartless pricks,you wouldn't be so nice ALL the time either :-P but,alas,i'm trying to change....to better myself at least.

and,sometimes,it's good i'm an ass,cause though i piss people off,but i TELL THE TRUTH,and it is too harsh for those who DON"T wanna hear it,to be offended. that's something i consider as positive cause i know it does mean i'll be a great leader someday..of something XD and,i'm naturally a "head burr in charge" cause even the cab drivers calls me "boss" out of nowhere,i didn't make them refer to me as that,they started calling me that,themselves lol

but,anyways,hope i succeed greatly in the world,so i can prove to my non-supporting ass talk s*** behind my back family that i CAN and WILL succeed. though,my intentions are messed up,yet,good at the sametime but,i not only doing this to have future bragging rights,i'm doing this to SURVIVE and SUCCEED FOR MY OWN SELF.

but,anyways,thanks for reading this journal. hope it was (kinda) good to read,at least *watching the credits scroll at the end of The South Park movie completely uncensored on Comedy Central durring late night hours* >_> anyways,good night or morning ^_^ and,thanks for all of you for supporting me.

I'M SO READY FOR THE SUPPER BOWL TOO!

*HUGS EVERYONE* love you all ^^