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I am who...Who am I... continued
14 years ago
This is a continuation of my last journal found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2062751/
I have to say that my first list really helped me feel more like me again, between it and the comments my friends left I actually feel more like I did the day before yesterday when I was so excited and happy I didn't even notice I worked for 9 hrs on 3 hrs of sleep. I can say however I still feel the need to do this and so today I post a second list of who I am. I get a lot of time to think while at work and so a lot of these I felt out then, but not all many are straight from my head as I think of them, a free flow of ideas that help me understand me, and maybe find the little piece of me that got lost for a bit.
I am who...
I'm very self conscious about my grammar and spelling. I have never been much good at either.
I ask my friends so many questions because I feel it helps me know myself.
Online I try to be the exact same person I am in life. That whole try to be honest with people thing.
I'm in love with the sweetest sexiest man I have ever met, and he has showed me that there are people out there that are interested in the joy I hold inside.
I have two other very special people in my life as well and I would never give either up.
I'm shy but not bashful even though I blush madly anytime I am being open.
I'm not a complex person even though I tend to over complicate the simplest things.
The way to my heart is simple, need me as much as I need you, as my skunk has discovered, and I have an inkling Jeeves suspects.
I'm not a risk taker by nature, but it does not take much to pull me into it.
I'm terrified of heights and deep water, but I like dolphins and birds.
Sometimes I think I may be just a little bit rat.
I loved being a kid while I still was one.
I learned long ago that I would rather be happy than smart,rich,famous or any number of other adjectives.
I am a fidgeter. Leave me bored with any little shiny around and I will be soon be playing with it.
I used to think I knew what love was... until I felt it for the very first time.
I love love love having my ears rubbed and played with.
I click when I'm really happy even if I have to think about it first.
I have always ended up being the support for those I care for, a role I treasure, only with my Mephit do I feel comfortable with the roles reversed.
I am non judgmental in the extreme, unless you are causing suffering in another living thing, I wont hold anything against you.
When I witness anothers pain I feel it acutely and my heart calls out to try and mend it.
I have had many furry crushes but only one species has attracted that type of affection multiple times.
I love roos! They are bouncy in a way I never could be.
I am... all of these things, and so much more too.
I am happy.
I have to say that my first list really helped me feel more like me again, between it and the comments my friends left I actually feel more like I did the day before yesterday when I was so excited and happy I didn't even notice I worked for 9 hrs on 3 hrs of sleep. I can say however I still feel the need to do this and so today I post a second list of who I am. I get a lot of time to think while at work and so a lot of these I felt out then, but not all many are straight from my head as I think of them, a free flow of ideas that help me understand me, and maybe find the little piece of me that got lost for a bit.
I am who...
I'm very self conscious about my grammar and spelling. I have never been much good at either.
I ask my friends so many questions because I feel it helps me know myself.
Online I try to be the exact same person I am in life. That whole try to be honest with people thing.
I'm in love with the sweetest sexiest man I have ever met, and he has showed me that there are people out there that are interested in the joy I hold inside.
I have two other very special people in my life as well and I would never give either up.
I'm shy but not bashful even though I blush madly anytime I am being open.
I'm not a complex person even though I tend to over complicate the simplest things.
The way to my heart is simple, need me as much as I need you, as my skunk has discovered, and I have an inkling Jeeves suspects.
I'm not a risk taker by nature, but it does not take much to pull me into it.
I'm terrified of heights and deep water, but I like dolphins and birds.
Sometimes I think I may be just a little bit rat.
I loved being a kid while I still was one.
I learned long ago that I would rather be happy than smart,rich,famous or any number of other adjectives.
I am a fidgeter. Leave me bored with any little shiny around and I will be soon be playing with it.
I used to think I knew what love was... until I felt it for the very first time.
I love love love having my ears rubbed and played with.
I click when I'm really happy even if I have to think about it first.
I have always ended up being the support for those I care for, a role I treasure, only with my Mephit do I feel comfortable with the roles reversed.
I am non judgmental in the extreme, unless you are causing suffering in another living thing, I wont hold anything against you.
When I witness anothers pain I feel it acutely and my heart calls out to try and mend it.
I have had many furry crushes but only one species has attracted that type of affection multiple times.
I love roos! They are bouncy in a way I never could be.
I am... all of these things, and so much more too.
I am happy.
I'm so glad to hear someone else say this. I know so many folks who hated their entire childhood! Perhaps thats why we both have that playful, giggly streak in us... coz we're in no hurry to cast off our childhoods. :)
I'm gonna go beat him up and steal you from him!
And I'll always be here for you.
I find it interesting how something that would be completely meaningless to a non-fur has *very* deep meanings to some of us. I've thought deeply about my emotions about my species, actually gotten upset over it at some times as I'm a tad anti-fox, but after 11+ years (and I like the combo's benefits) I'm stuck a skox even though I'm 100% skunk at heart.
I'm in no way a rat, but I have many concepts about what a rat's actions, thoughts and emotions might be -- through other friends that are rats plus owning rats of my own in the past. While I couldn't identify as one, I think rats are a way attractive personality type, and I commend you on trying to contemplate your species deeply.
What sealed the deal for me was researching animal totems back a decade ago.. I loved skunks but that helped me confirm it was the perfect fit. More rat research might enlighten you more on your contemplations :)