Im just getting ready to have a stroke... For about the past week, my mate Oakheart has been suicidal, which has me on edge 24 fuckin 7... and then ive been declared alpha of our pack. No idea why, but eh, i seem to be the only one who gets all 5 of us to communicate. Six has been a little indifferent on things as usual, but he is helping. All of this is just so damn stressful... plus the fact that were ALL separated, cept for me and meg. I just cant wait till all this starts to blow over. Oak has his unstable periods, thanks to that ass-fucker of a dad he has... if I could, i would go up there and kill that bitch myself. Once he turns 17, we'll be in the clear *wipes forehead*... hopefully. This is just a huge draw on me and with my parents bitching at me constantly because of being on the computer constantly, its just getting to much... I cant just leave chat and let him think i gave up, which wouldnt be the case at all, but he would loose it. Luckily I have Six and Kaiya to take care of me when im starting to loose it... and meg... she's hopeless. im sorry, but ugh... She's too much of a hassle. I just keep hope and live everything day by day, because you never know what the fuck life is gonna throw at you. I just hope that the storm will pass soon... because the coldest part of the day is right before the dawn. Just all this stress... i want it to end soon. I just want to be happy with my mates and for them to be happy with eachother and life... God... Please let us get through this.