(Sorry, I need to vent a little... if you don't like venting please ignore this)

God my life has been very dramatic in some aspects lately... I've had insanely good things and insanely bad things within the last few weeks that have caused my mind to be a mass of clashing emotions. There have been times where I smile, but feel like crying and times when I cry, but feel like smiling and laughing.

To kind of explain why I feel like this I think I should give some bits of background info...

Good Things:

-I got to see my old art teacher from high school. (She is an amazing woman who cares about her students with all her heart)
-I got my state fair prize winning drawing back.
-I'm being allowed to do more and more graphical projects at work.
-I'm 100% enrolled to start college for game design.

Bad Things:

-The doctors FINALLY diagnosed my grandfather with stage 4 cancer. They say he's probably had this for a very long time... (Why didn't they diagnose it earlier then!?)
-The chemo-therapy isn't working... it's spreading... T_T


Personally the only things holding me together is my music, art, work, and... hope... which is beginning to shrink as more bad news happens....