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20 things people don't know about me
15 years ago
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And still won't, because no one reads my journal here anyway.
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rorancrystalwolf
1.I absolutely hate when people don't reply to my messages. Is it really so hard to say "Sorry, I can't talk right now" or "Sorry I didn't answer, I was busy at the moment." Even a simple "Sorry, I'm blatantly ignoring you" would suffice.
2. There are things I like to do, and things I wish I could do, but very few things that I'm really good at actually doing.
3. I really don't have a lot of friends. And of the friends I do have, I rarely get to talk to them or see them.
4. I get depressed when I have no one to talk to and nothing to do, which is quite often.
5. People don't take me seriously when I get moody or depressed, and they talk to me even less.
6. Continuing #5, I really wish they would talk to me and hear me out when I get upset, because it makes me feel better when I can vent to someone I know, who will (hopefully) understand why I feel that way.
7. The people I trust least are the people closest to me.
8. I'm always afraid that if my friends knew the whole truth about me, they wouldn't be my friends anymore.
9. I do things that my "friends" tell me to do because I want them to like me and be my "friends".
10. I need others to like me because I don't like myself.
11. I want to be well-known for SOMETHING during my lifetime.
12. Among the things I wish I could do are: lose about 50lbs.; improve my ability to draw and write; hold a steady job; be more out-going and personable; get a professional gig as a bass guitarist; sing without sounding like a pig being stabbed in the lungs; completely finish a video game without "cheating"
13. I hate the sound of my voice. This is part of the reason why I prefer text messaging over talking on the phone.
14. When I was younger, I asked my parents several times to take me to an emotional counselor. It never happened.
15. I listen to music as a way to clear my mind of all the shit that goes on in my life.
16. I also use music as a way to block out what's going on around me so I can concentrate on myself for a change.
17. I don't follow my own advice. When my friends need help and support, I tell them that things will get better. But I don't really believe it.
18. I don't believe in "unconditional love". I believe everyone has at least one thing that if they did/said/expressed, someone who loves them would no longer love them.
19. Nothing personal, but I find straight couples showing public displays of affection to be rather disturbing. I attribute this to the fact that I'm gay, and if I did the same thing with my (hypothetical) boyfriend, we'd be told to stop.
20. I think about death a lot. I wonder what it feels like to die and be dead. I wonder about when and how I will die. I wonder who would come to my funeral. And I wonder if anyone I met online would even realize that I'm not around anymore. In addition, I sometimes think about how my life would change if I was ever diagnosed with a terminal disease, like AIDS or cancer or something. Who would I tell, and what would their reactions be? The future is a scary place.
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rorancrystalwolf1.I absolutely hate when people don't reply to my messages. Is it really so hard to say "Sorry, I can't talk right now" or "Sorry I didn't answer, I was busy at the moment." Even a simple "Sorry, I'm blatantly ignoring you" would suffice.
2. There are things I like to do, and things I wish I could do, but very few things that I'm really good at actually doing.
3. I really don't have a lot of friends. And of the friends I do have, I rarely get to talk to them or see them.
4. I get depressed when I have no one to talk to and nothing to do, which is quite often.
5. People don't take me seriously when I get moody or depressed, and they talk to me even less.
6. Continuing #5, I really wish they would talk to me and hear me out when I get upset, because it makes me feel better when I can vent to someone I know, who will (hopefully) understand why I feel that way.
7. The people I trust least are the people closest to me.
8. I'm always afraid that if my friends knew the whole truth about me, they wouldn't be my friends anymore.
9. I do things that my "friends" tell me to do because I want them to like me and be my "friends".
10. I need others to like me because I don't like myself.
11. I want to be well-known for SOMETHING during my lifetime.
12. Among the things I wish I could do are: lose about 50lbs.; improve my ability to draw and write; hold a steady job; be more out-going and personable; get a professional gig as a bass guitarist; sing without sounding like a pig being stabbed in the lungs; completely finish a video game without "cheating"
13. I hate the sound of my voice. This is part of the reason why I prefer text messaging over talking on the phone.
14. When I was younger, I asked my parents several times to take me to an emotional counselor. It never happened.
15. I listen to music as a way to clear my mind of all the shit that goes on in my life.
16. I also use music as a way to block out what's going on around me so I can concentrate on myself for a change.
17. I don't follow my own advice. When my friends need help and support, I tell them that things will get better. But I don't really believe it.
18. I don't believe in "unconditional love". I believe everyone has at least one thing that if they did/said/expressed, someone who loves them would no longer love them.
19. Nothing personal, but I find straight couples showing public displays of affection to be rather disturbing. I attribute this to the fact that I'm gay, and if I did the same thing with my (hypothetical) boyfriend, we'd be told to stop.
20. I think about death a lot. I wonder what it feels like to die and be dead. I wonder about when and how I will die. I wonder who would come to my funeral. And I wonder if anyone I met online would even realize that I'm not around anymore. In addition, I sometimes think about how my life would change if I was ever diagnosed with a terminal disease, like AIDS or cancer or something. Who would I tell, and what would their reactions be? The future is a scary place.
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