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Of things, events, people... an entry for this new year.
14 years ago
First off, I'd like to wish a (much) belated Happy New Years to all that still follow my FA profile, and a Happy Chinese New Year's even (as of right now, today would be the 5th day of the Chinese/Lunar New Year). Out goes the year of the Tiggy *sad_tiggy_face.jpg*, and in comes the year of the Bunny (still wish it's Tiggy year),
Also, thank you for all the new watchers and +favs for the past few months, and hope you liked the photos I have on here.
What has happened since? You can say, not a whole lot... in fact, the more things change, the more it seems to stay the same. Still having bad dreams, simply unable to sleep at night (or morning), and still completely un-motivated with anything and everything. "Time will heal wounds"... well, I suppose time is all relative. For me at least, the hurt and emotions just keep coming up in waves stronger, and stronger. I will never forget and I certainly am not ready to forgive whatever happened, and distractions are merely that... distractions. That's something for me to deal with and I forsee that it'll consume me in not a good way.
People might also noticed my online presence... or lack thereof. I have pruned a whole heap of my contacts (IMs, phone etc.) and actually kept away from "online" for most days. The best way to catch my attention is still to (voice) call my mobile phone, or physcially meet up with me. The above paragraph sums up such a lack of presence.
Anyhow, I'll save those thoughts for another day.
FurcoNZ 2010 has came, and gone, and I hoped everyone enjoyed their time there. From my perspective, it was a "down-to-business" meet/con for me, as I seem to be constantly pre-occupied with handling... everything. I was disappointed with various matters, the "art/badge/con-book" incident for one, and a very forgettable Saturday night filled with drama and kicking out one person which, no words can describe the sheer mixed, raw emotions that I felt. I really have to thank the entire staff team, and especially to
Kaltezar (the security lead for FurcoNZ) for NOT walking out on us that night.
I went to MiDFur 2010, and my opinion is quite mixed. I loved Melbourne as a city and the awesome foods and places it has, and the people I was with (to enjoy said Beer, and Food). However, seeing as MiDFur happened the weekend BEFORE FurcoNZ, it meant that I actually had to deal with "work" while there... receiving a phone call at 7:00am from the lodge site that your event/meet/con is going to be the following weekend, ducking into the bathroom and trying to sort various stuffs out over a (rather expensive incoming roaming) call for 15 minutes certainly didn't help.
That aside, hopefully hogged BBF (BigBlueFox, MiDFur 2010's Guest of Honor)'s camera enough during the con and parade that my Tiggy-Suit-Face will appear in the final cut... hopefully! (I have hogged BBF's camera in past cons such as FC, however I somehow always ended up having just 5 seconds of airtime over a 2+ hour cut)
New Year's Eve was also a mixed bag. I decided to host a "small" party as for the past... 5+ years haven't really done anything on that day/night and well, up until midnight certain people showed up (despite clearly conveyed that they were not that welcomed, to put it kindly), but I suppose etiquette these days are lost on the younger (internet) generation. However I vented my frustrations out towards... SingStar until 3am.
And recently, I also threw a party for Chinese New Years. Watching the annual fireworks display from Hong Kong kinda reminded me what I missed about the city where I was from... vibrant, loud with a bang, just filled with so much flair and extravagance. Afterwards, Tiggy with dress and heels made an appearance for a new toy I got... SingStar Dance (to be accurate, it's the PlayStation Move kit that was the new toy). It was oddly addictive and actually really fun, not sure about those who sat behind me and saw my Tiggy butt wiggling and moving about though... and once again, danced and sung till at least 3:30am.
So, what are this Tiggy's plans for this year?
Paying off the (somewhat huge) debt that I accumulated is still the top priority, and I have been doing well in the past year or so to keep it in check.
Finally finishing my degree (Bachelor of Engineering Technology, Networks and Communications major), which has took me long enough, last year was supposed to be my final year until... that one unfortunate event happened with me.
FurcoNZ 2011 is a definate go and with the experience of the past 2 years, and the (at of this moment) full support of the staff team that we have assembled, should hopefully make this much smoother running than 2010.
Getting some of my planned projects going - some of which very much involve fursuits/suiting/"furry crap", and some of which are even more bizzare and interesting. But of course, we shall see by the end of this year how many of those are actually accomplished.
Getting better at SingStar + Dance. Yes, I am sure a whole heap of you just threw a look of "disgust" when I mentioned that... but it is oddly addictive. Plus, when you're doing it in fursuit + heels + dancing to SingStar... it's just epic!
And perhaps most important of all, find some motivation and get myself to a better head-space... which might mean some really, really painful and difficult choices.
... until next time.
Also, thank you for all the new watchers and +favs for the past few months, and hope you liked the photos I have on here.
What has happened since? You can say, not a whole lot... in fact, the more things change, the more it seems to stay the same. Still having bad dreams, simply unable to sleep at night (or morning), and still completely un-motivated with anything and everything. "Time will heal wounds"... well, I suppose time is all relative. For me at least, the hurt and emotions just keep coming up in waves stronger, and stronger. I will never forget and I certainly am not ready to forgive whatever happened, and distractions are merely that... distractions. That's something for me to deal with and I forsee that it'll consume me in not a good way.
People might also noticed my online presence... or lack thereof. I have pruned a whole heap of my contacts (IMs, phone etc.) and actually kept away from "online" for most days. The best way to catch my attention is still to (voice) call my mobile phone, or physcially meet up with me. The above paragraph sums up such a lack of presence.
Anyhow, I'll save those thoughts for another day.
FurcoNZ 2010 has came, and gone, and I hoped everyone enjoyed their time there. From my perspective, it was a "down-to-business" meet/con for me, as I seem to be constantly pre-occupied with handling... everything. I was disappointed with various matters, the "art/badge/con-book" incident for one, and a very forgettable Saturday night filled with drama and kicking out one person which, no words can describe the sheer mixed, raw emotions that I felt. I really have to thank the entire staff team, and especially to
Kaltezar (the security lead for FurcoNZ) for NOT walking out on us that night.I went to MiDFur 2010, and my opinion is quite mixed. I loved Melbourne as a city and the awesome foods and places it has, and the people I was with (to enjoy said Beer, and Food). However, seeing as MiDFur happened the weekend BEFORE FurcoNZ, it meant that I actually had to deal with "work" while there... receiving a phone call at 7:00am from the lodge site that your event/meet/con is going to be the following weekend, ducking into the bathroom and trying to sort various stuffs out over a (rather expensive incoming roaming) call for 15 minutes certainly didn't help.
That aside, hopefully hogged BBF (BigBlueFox, MiDFur 2010's Guest of Honor)'s camera enough during the con and parade that my Tiggy-Suit-Face will appear in the final cut... hopefully! (I have hogged BBF's camera in past cons such as FC, however I somehow always ended up having just 5 seconds of airtime over a 2+ hour cut)
New Year's Eve was also a mixed bag. I decided to host a "small" party as for the past... 5+ years haven't really done anything on that day/night and well, up until midnight certain people showed up (despite clearly conveyed that they were not that welcomed, to put it kindly), but I suppose etiquette these days are lost on the younger (internet) generation. However I vented my frustrations out towards... SingStar until 3am.
And recently, I also threw a party for Chinese New Years. Watching the annual fireworks display from Hong Kong kinda reminded me what I missed about the city where I was from... vibrant, loud with a bang, just filled with so much flair and extravagance. Afterwards, Tiggy with dress and heels made an appearance for a new toy I got... SingStar Dance (to be accurate, it's the PlayStation Move kit that was the new toy). It was oddly addictive and actually really fun, not sure about those who sat behind me and saw my Tiggy butt wiggling and moving about though... and once again, danced and sung till at least 3:30am.
So, what are this Tiggy's plans for this year?
Paying off the (somewhat huge) debt that I accumulated is still the top priority, and I have been doing well in the past year or so to keep it in check.
Finally finishing my degree (Bachelor of Engineering Technology, Networks and Communications major), which has took me long enough, last year was supposed to be my final year until... that one unfortunate event happened with me.
FurcoNZ 2011 is a definate go and with the experience of the past 2 years, and the (at of this moment) full support of the staff team that we have assembled, should hopefully make this much smoother running than 2010.
Getting some of my planned projects going - some of which very much involve fursuits/suiting/"furry crap", and some of which are even more bizzare and interesting. But of course, we shall see by the end of this year how many of those are actually accomplished.
Getting better at SingStar + Dance. Yes, I am sure a whole heap of you just threw a look of "disgust" when I mentioned that... but it is oddly addictive. Plus, when you're doing it in fursuit + heels + dancing to SingStar... it's just epic!
And perhaps most important of all, find some motivation and get myself to a better head-space... which might mean some really, really painful and difficult choices.
... until next time.
<3 Moar Queen Singstar