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Hormonal without the hormones... bad title >.>
15 years ago
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I really want to understand what is chemically going on with my body lately. I am just calling it PMS or menopaus but realistically I am not going to get those. Basically what's going on which I have probably mentioned before is I am moody... really really moody. No one has likely noticed it as I have been extremely antisocial because of it. I don't want to rage or cry all over everyone. It's not even that anythings wrong because things are super great obviously as I move forward in all this with posative results. I feel bad for Sultry who HAS seen the mood swings and has had to stay up during the nights where I just cried ALL NIGHT!!! Ugh it's exhausting. So I am trying to think of reasons why it would be happening.
Theory 1: I am finally being who I really am and all the things that have happened to me anthat were repressed are coming forward due to my open mental state
Theory 2: Upon realizing what I have to do and accepting myself for who I really am I have felt INCREDIBLY more feminine like I used to when I was a teenager and everything is just sunshine and rainbows and estrogen is made in the brain. So I don't know if it's possible that my mental state has just increased the natural ammount of estrogen in my body to the point where it is... I dunno the idea trails off there as I am not a doctor and I feel silly thinking about Theory # 2 I actually think it's a combo of both.
I have heard of people mixing HRT with hypnosis to help the process as APPARENTLY you can be hypnotised into making your body produce more estrogen. Which makes sense but I don't know how feasable it is.
Anyway those are my silly ideas on the matter but either way I really am loving this whole process I have never felt so amazing and not "waah life sucks" which is amazing because I am at a point in my life where it should be harder than ever. *misses
* However I am able to cope with just about anything... though am alot more emotional.
but yeah I just wanted to throw that out there because I don't want anyone thinking I don't like them anymore in RL I am just UBER emotional and I am sparing you all having to deal with it (don't say you can deal with it and it is fine because I kept Sultry up ALL NIGHT with it before... you don't want to open that door)
Anyway I have a super busy week and hopefully something awesome comes from it. I will have a doctors appt on friday to see if I can get a refferal to THE ONLY ENDOCRINOLOGIST WITHIN MY PROVICNE. If that doesn't work I will likely post some maanac journal about how hard things re and whine about stuff but I will warn you and you can delete it XD
Also I'm really going to try and update my Vlog in the coming week I just don't really have the circumstance to be able to regularily... I'll see what I can do.
Ciao!
Theory 1: I am finally being who I really am and all the things that have happened to me anthat were repressed are coming forward due to my open mental state
Theory 2: Upon realizing what I have to do and accepting myself for who I really am I have felt INCREDIBLY more feminine like I used to when I was a teenager and everything is just sunshine and rainbows and estrogen is made in the brain. So I don't know if it's possible that my mental state has just increased the natural ammount of estrogen in my body to the point where it is... I dunno the idea trails off there as I am not a doctor and I feel silly thinking about Theory # 2 I actually think it's a combo of both.
I have heard of people mixing HRT with hypnosis to help the process as APPARENTLY you can be hypnotised into making your body produce more estrogen. Which makes sense but I don't know how feasable it is.
Anyway those are my silly ideas on the matter but either way I really am loving this whole process I have never felt so amazing and not "waah life sucks" which is amazing because I am at a point in my life where it should be harder than ever. *misses
* However I am able to cope with just about anything... though am alot more emotional. but yeah I just wanted to throw that out there because I don't want anyone thinking I don't like them anymore in RL I am just UBER emotional and I am sparing you all having to deal with it (don't say you can deal with it and it is fine because I kept Sultry up ALL NIGHT with it before... you don't want to open that door)
Anyway I have a super busy week and hopefully something awesome comes from it. I will have a doctors appt on friday to see if I can get a refferal to THE ONLY ENDOCRINOLOGIST WITHIN MY PROVICNE. If that doesn't work I will likely post some maanac journal about how hard things re and whine about stuff but I will warn you and you can delete it XD
Also I'm really going to try and update my Vlog in the coming week I just don't really have the circumstance to be able to regularily... I'll see what I can do.
Ciao!
If it does we will have a party!
Could be a combination of both theory 1 and 2 (don't completely rule out theory 2, the human body is capable of some amazing feats, even if we don't fully understand it)...Mind Over Matter=Awesome...
Hope to see you and Sultry back together and happy soon!
And have a wonderful week, okay? 'cuz I LOVE parties!!! *wagwag* ^+^ *awooo*
Yeah I haven't completely ruled to theory 2 as it is both interesting and "logical"
You remind me of another beer drinking dog we both know Tadg *scritches*
(2): i'm part vulcan, you know...
(3): why, thank you very much..
*hehe* *scritches x 2* ^+^
Good to hear you bein who you are. Thats good.
Yo straight up, if you need someone to talk to. I'm alway here, I'll stand right beside you and sultry
Also, I 'm not really pervert dont kno why I talk that way. Jus teasin you guys.
But I got ya back cuz
Thank you for your support. I am not taking female hormones yes but I am in the process of getting on them.
Oh got it.
I think that, so long as you know there's a logical reason behind it, you should be alright. Knowing, or at least being aware, that functions of something is clockwork makes it a lot bearable. Nonetheless, hope you can get through your week
good point! i've forgotten about your angsty *internet* self. you're making progress XJ Crepey FPS sunday! :D