Life is like a roller coaster and right now it's at the drop in the ride. For those of you who don't know my fiancee  sultry and I were seperated after a year due to immigration complications it was all a very long and dramatic process where she was forced out of the country immediatly on no notice at all due to misinformation given to use by government employees. She is currently in the lower part of America whilst I am here in Canada trying to keep everything together for her whilst dealing with my own transgender issues.

I have been able to cope sufficiently up until now despite all that has been thrown at me. Sultry doesn't have the nicest family and she is living with them. We are allowed to speak 3 times a day for 10 minutes each but we had Skype on the computer so that was manageable. However due to her mother's excessive chainsmoking over the last 3 years the laptop got clogged with smoke and overheated... it no longer works... and they are refusing to repair it and are furthermore blaming it on her and will not listen to the advice of MULTIPLE computer techs... I am not capable of function without her... there is simply no way I can resume normal function withoug my Sultry... I talk to her all the time and now to have her taken what it seems like ALL OVER AGAIN is alot on my system... I honestly have no idea what to do except get her a new laptop... except now they are saying that she has to get a job in a place that is not necessarily safe... and without a car... if I could get my hand son them.... anyway

I could rant on forever as I am currently losing my mind...


I am accepting donations from anyone willing to help us my my paypal is randymacphee[at]gmail.com

Any help would be appreciated... I never wanted to ask for money but I think rock bottom is imminent.